This is it! I can't take it any more! I'm going to die and no one will be around to save me! I wish I could have done so many thing different, told people I cared about them! But it's over! My life is failing and I can't do anything to stop it from spiraling down, down into the black hole. My entire day sumed...
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mr_ruckus:
Yeah,After hearing their stories I could NEVER go!
thejuanupsman:
Dude, you aren't supposed to strain!! 
A construction worker in Tulsa intentionally cut his hand
off with a circular saw. When he was taken to the emergency
room, he told doctors not to reattach the hand, saying that
it was possessed. The man is now suing the doctors for not
reattaching his hand, claiming that the doctors should have
known he was psychotic.
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off with a circular saw. When he was taken to the emergency
room, he told doctors not to reattach the hand, saying that
it was possessed. The man is now suing the doctors for not
reattaching his hand, claiming that the doctors should have
known he was psychotic.
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smthngclever:
Yes I am seeing someone special; we met in college. I don't like talking about my personal relationships though. I save that convrosation for my mom. Also, my top priority isn't focusing on a relationship; it's experiencing life and trying new things, job-related or not. You're only young once. He knows that too. So we work well. 
clover:
I'm going to make a living off of suing people. It will be fun, hmmm lets see those neighbor boys sure are bouncing that basketball pretty loudly and its giving me a headache. I'm going to sue them.
Why must I be like that!? Why must I chase the cat!? 
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thejuanupsman:
Well a wise man once explained it to me like this:
"It's call primal intsinct. In the animal kingdom a white tail buck fight for the ass of the doe. The strongest one gets it! Same for us humans only on a more inteligent level. Black ants and red ant fight to the death, there is no stop to this. No peace only conflict. Animals even have tribes or herds that are territorial. All this is the same thing we do and the same way we act only we have a chance to decide if it's right. We are not on top of the food chain because we are human. We are there because we are the smartest animals on the planet. When we think we have free choice we are really just battling our own primal instinct to do what animals will do! Fight, fuck, and survive!"
so you chase the kitty cause its your primal nature. And the only reason you even stop to question why you do it is because we humans have been blessed (cursed?) with the ability to reason, question and analyze, but in the end we are still driven by those primal instincts we just think about them a lot before, during and after acting on them
trust me if we could stop, I think I would have found a way long ago.....
"It's call primal intsinct. In the animal kingdom a white tail buck fight for the ass of the doe. The strongest one gets it! Same for us humans only on a more inteligent level. Black ants and red ant fight to the death, there is no stop to this. No peace only conflict. Animals even have tribes or herds that are territorial. All this is the same thing we do and the same way we act only we have a chance to decide if it's right. We are not on top of the food chain because we are human. We are there because we are the smartest animals on the planet. When we think we have free choice we are really just battling our own primal instinct to do what animals will do! Fight, fuck, and survive!"
so you chase the kitty cause its your primal nature. And the only reason you even stop to question why you do it is because we humans have been blessed (cursed?) with the ability to reason, question and analyze, but in the end we are still driven by those primal instincts we just think about them a lot before, during and after acting on them
trust me if we could stop, I think I would have found a way long ago.....
princesskat:
Hi Stiggy.
I guess I'm missing something. I need to read back. Hope you're ok.
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Ok...I read your entry from yesterday.
Girls like that are stupid and a waste of time. I see decent guys like you alone or constantly being shit on, and it bothers me.
I have a friend who I've known for a little over a year. He is a wonderful person and would treat a lady like a lady. But yet he is still alone. In fact, I have met several people like that recently. I have even found myself extremely attracted to several of these people, because I know they have what it takes to make a great and loving relationship. It saddens me they have yet to find that girl and they feel like just giving up.
I don't understand some of the girls logic. Always attracted to the asshole, the troublemaker. Why? Where the fuck is that going to get you? Alone with a baby while he's in jail or fucking another girl?? Bitch, he doesn't love you!!! Are you fuckin' blind???
My last relationship was a mess. For a year, everything seemed fine. But when we moved, I started seeing things I had not noticed before. We had to depend on eachother since we didn't know ANYBODY, and I didn't like what I saw. I tried to give him an adjustment phase. We both made friends before too long, but then our friends started to point things out to me. After hearing enough, I did some investigating. I saw what I needed to see and said "Fuck off you lying piece of shit. I'm through." I never looked back. Five 911 calls, two restraining orders and an attorney later, he is mostly out of my life. Months after I left, I found a wonderful man whom I love. We have our differences, but they are so minor. ( I can't get him out of the house half the time!) He is good to me and I will accept nothing less.
Fuck these women who date the "bad boys." All I have to say to them is, if you don't learn and then get out, then it's you're fault for all the shit you have to put up with, and I have NO pity for you. There are plenty of men out there who will treat you right and really love you. But honey, you're not gonna find them in a bar or fuckin jail.
I'm sorry to go on and on, but it really pisses me off. I'm sorry you too are having to deal with this. I hope you will find the right woman dear. They are out there.
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[Edited on May 24, 2004 1:53AM]
I guess I'm missing something. I need to read back. Hope you're ok.
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Ok...I read your entry from yesterday.
Girls like that are stupid and a waste of time. I see decent guys like you alone or constantly being shit on, and it bothers me.
I have a friend who I've known for a little over a year. He is a wonderful person and would treat a lady like a lady. But yet he is still alone. In fact, I have met several people like that recently. I have even found myself extremely attracted to several of these people, because I know they have what it takes to make a great and loving relationship. It saddens me they have yet to find that girl and they feel like just giving up.
I don't understand some of the girls logic. Always attracted to the asshole, the troublemaker. Why? Where the fuck is that going to get you? Alone with a baby while he's in jail or fucking another girl?? Bitch, he doesn't love you!!! Are you fuckin' blind???
My last relationship was a mess. For a year, everything seemed fine. But when we moved, I started seeing things I had not noticed before. We had to depend on eachother since we didn't know ANYBODY, and I didn't like what I saw. I tried to give him an adjustment phase. We both made friends before too long, but then our friends started to point things out to me. After hearing enough, I did some investigating. I saw what I needed to see and said "Fuck off you lying piece of shit. I'm through." I never looked back. Five 911 calls, two restraining orders and an attorney later, he is mostly out of my life. Months after I left, I found a wonderful man whom I love. We have our differences, but they are so minor. ( I can't get him out of the house half the time!
) He is good to me and I will accept nothing less.
Fuck these women who date the "bad boys." All I have to say to them is, if you don't learn and then get out, then it's you're fault for all the shit you have to put up with, and I have NO pity for you. There are plenty of men out there who will treat you right and really love you. But honey, you're not gonna find them in a bar or fuckin jail.
I'm sorry to go on and on, but it really pisses me off. I'm sorry you too are having to deal with this. I hope you will find the right woman dear. They are out there.
[Edited on May 24, 2004 1:49AM]
[Edited on May 24, 2004 1:53AM]
It seems every girl I try to talk to has a boyfriend. an I hate how these girls like to talk about their boyfriends. Don't be fooled, they do it so you can walk away with some dignity, but still I don't want to know about your boyfriend, I don't care about him. I didn't walk up to you and ask you anything about him,...
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james:
just be yourself kid, theyll come. good luck!
chrisalis:
i say combine no. 1 with a touch of faith. your life is more than a search for that perfect woman. have faith in yourself and you might be amazed at what happens.
Off to shoot the wedding. It's in oxford PA then back to three little bakers. I'll be with them all day and half the night I'm sure. Well be safe everybody and if anythig juicy happens, like the bride pushing me into the back room for some last second thoughts, I'll let you know.
I would like to hang out with more of you guys....
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akirali:
Best line in the movie:
Batman. Batman?!? Would sombdy please tell me what kind of a world we live in where a man dressed up like a BAT gets all of my press! This town needs an enema! *blows party noisemaker*
[Edited on May 22, 2004 7:52PM]
Best line in the movie:
Batman. Batman?!? Would sombdy please tell me what kind of a world we live in where a man dressed up like a BAT gets all of my press! This town needs an enema! *blows party noisemaker*
[Edited on May 22, 2004 7:52PM]
akirali:
hate to admit it but i naver actually saw Blue Velvet 
Sorry gotta run out the door! I'll be more candid about my day later. I'm sure it will be really interesting!
www.monstergenocide.com
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Well I worked all night on a video for a client at work and the better part of this morning at home finishing it. I get to work and show it to Tim, my boss, he likes it and Kevin, the other...
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www.monstergenocide.com
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Well I worked all night on a video for a client at work and the better part of this morning at home finishing it. I get to work and show it to Tim, my boss, he likes it and Kevin, the other...
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pattti:
my schedual is the same every week though (sorry forgot to mention that), So any tuesday/friday/saturday is good.
l_f:
Ah ! The monster is taking shape, huh ?
I saw an accident the other day! I was shooting a car lot when we heard this car wreak noise. I turned around and saw this car lauchinto the air and crash into some bushes, inches away from a metal pole. The was still alive but bleeding and stuff. He had glass all in him and the airbags where all over the place. WILD!!
ANGEL...
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ANGEL...
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thejuanupsman:
Longest time awake, a little over 80 hours, playing Champions (a super hero role playing game), nothing much happened we finally finished, I slept about 8 hours and then we went and played some baseball. I was 13
j_stokes:
No way .....your name is not Al Green!!!!!Is that true!!!????????????????
I just woke up and I can hardly see cause my eyes are still fuzzy. Before I get in the shower or eat I come here and type up a new post.
I hung out a bit with xwellthenx
HrlyQuinn
and
chrisalis!
I had a drink that knocked me on my ass! I can't remember the whole name of it but it ended with...
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I hung out a bit with xwellthenx
HrlyQuinn
and
chrisalis!
I had a drink that knocked me on my ass! I can't remember the whole name of it but it ended with...
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thejuanupsman:
The Ninja and the Scribe showed up at my door and we went to see kill bill vol. 2 and then grabbed Bulgogi and Kimbob at the Korea house. Spent the entire evening laughing and talking with two beautiful, intelliegent, funny awesome women. And I didn't think about Jen even once the whole night....
I've been looking for a print of H. R. Giger's Leo. A zodiac symbol he made that I want tattooed on my arm. Although I've never seen it, it would be the most unigue thing to have on my arm forever!
Tuesday. Stands for too many days till the weekend.
If anyone can find the Giger print I'm looking for I'll give them a prize!
Tuesday. Stands for too many days till the weekend.
If anyone can find the Giger print I'm looking for I'll give them a prize!
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clover:
no but I have heard nothing but good things about it. I will have to check that out.
james:
yeah im workin on stuff, ill put more up as it comes...
I don't feel like going to work today. But of course if I don't go I won't hear the end of it. Everybody else that works there is late all the time, but I'm there on time and do the most work. So when I bust some ball now and then no one can argue with me. I try to avoid most of them but...
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dodraibeid:
*Pulls out little black book* Seeing as how this is in retirement right now, you're more than welcome to it. If you look under the section entitled 'loose morals' you should find some promising leads.
alhim:
you know, friends with benefits can be some amazingly good sex depending on the factors involved. best luck getting laid, god knows we all do.
Off to sell comic books to the world!
The yeah yeah yeahs rock!
It's 11:00am! The time on this journal is wrong! It's west coast I believe!
I'll update later!
Have a lick of a day!
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Update!
This just in!
Nothing! Bordom has ruled my day! Besides three lovely ladies commenting me today so far, I have nothing to talk about. Why is my...
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The yeah yeah yeahs rock!
It's 11:00am! The time on this journal is wrong! It's west coast I believe!
I'll update later!
Have a lick of a day!
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Update!
This just in!
Nothing! Bordom has ruled my day! Besides three lovely ladies commenting me today so far, I have nothing to talk about. Why is my...
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james:
does it have any flavor are you fucking kidding me?!??!!?!? its sooooo amazingly good!!!! tofutti rules.
thejuanupsman:
Sigh why can't I sell comic books. I am putting off going to work as we speak. Trying to decide how late is unacceptably late. Usually ther by 7 but in such a good mood today that I dont want to see the asses I work with and ruin it.
Using my time wisley, I am putting together the first episode of monster genocide today and so far it sounds better than I had imagined it! We'll get it up on the site soon as we get some music and sound effects clicking!
How are you all doing? I'll ask you a question.
If you suddenly went blind today, what would you miss looking at...
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How are you all doing? I'll ask you a question.
If you suddenly went blind today, what would you miss looking at...
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alhim:
geneocide audio play? very cool, I wish you the best on that. I love it when people get creative and decide to connect and put their creativity out there when there ready so that others can enjoy and learn.
thejuanupsman:
women all of em. also i expect to have grandchildren someday It would be pretty sad not to see them.