Tuesday Jul 25, 2006

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For me, one of the hardest parts of life is accepting that I have no control over what other people do. I don't mean this in a manipulative manner, just that when someone hurts me, it is hard to tell myself that there is nothing I can do to fix it, but act wisely and move on. There's always that moment where you want to tell them just one more thing, to try again to let them see things from your perspective. And that one moment is always followed by another, and good intentions can result in increased conflict.

I'm lucky that in this time of frustration and confusion I've had a lot of people being nice to me. Its been unexpected but very much appreciated. I love my freedom but sometimes I find myself wishing that there was someone to tell me what to do. I can't change whats happened but I'm not going to let it drag me down and ruin everything else.

At least I have Cadbury. I can't believe how much love a feline can give <3
francesca:
Well if I was still living in Massachusetts we would probably be going to school together! I was living in the Concord area before I moved to CA. I had started checking into schools over there but ended up moving out this way. Luckily I live near one of the only two schools out here that have a mortuary science program. I was told by a student who goes there that she had heard it had one of the best programs in the country. That makes me feel good.
I know how you feel when being hurt and wanting to still try and talk things out to see what went wrong. I does seem to me that trying once to talk and understand is ok, but trying again and again does lead to more pain. Isn't it nice to have animals around to let you know you're not alone and you're loved unconditionally? miao!!

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