stewd

I had two songs playing in my head all night at work... this is the one that played the most...

i never thought this could be me / i guess you never do until it's happening to you / like all the fun turns into shame / and all the "could have beens" rearrange / so little time so many crimes guilt like a chain chokes my will away / redemption never seemed so cruel / and all my gods never seemed so weak / wake up engage now derailed and enraged it used to be so easy / get up i'm game now sick and i'm tame counting cost with lost / where is the hope they gave / don't think that i can't hear you laugh / i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me / drink to pills to shots turns into shock a habit and a pawn / for every hand goes round the pain gets so damned loud / the hammer hits and i'm down / trust no one / hey why should i they gave me the poison dressed like life / cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat / used to be a pro at this /now I've broken my own wrist / rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm gone