stevie_mcc

uhhh not "seeing" girl anymore. why you ask? probably cause im an idiot. but really its just because i wasnt really into her. is it weird just not wanting to date someone? i try to explain this and it comes out all fucking weird sounding. like just not being into a girl isnt a good enough reason. i probably sounded like a total douche. fuck whatever. i guess im just not a good relationship guy. gughhh... <-- thats the sound of me being kinda drunk and trying too hard to rationalize my thoughts.

i have a crush on M__ta anyways. And its that crush thats you've had for years and years and i think i could actually have a chance with her. and its not even me initiating it. she did. booya. she is the nicest person ive ever met, and i could see myself marrying her. is that creepy to say before we;ve even went on a date? whatever i dont care.

i really wanna live on a farm. it could be maybe like an art colony. a bunch of us could hang around making art and music and tattoos all day and we would each contribute to bills. i would be the leader and i would paint in the barn that i converted into my room slash art studio. i would have lots of cats and dogs. and other farm like animals. people could come stay on the ranch (! i like calling it a ranch!) and make art and play music and get tattooed. fuck that would be so awsome.