steve_huge's SuicideGirls Blog

ok... so i guess tonight was the test... i've been saying how happy i am now... and acceptance of the situation so to speak... but a night out in southend...

now that would put anyone to the test...

lets just say i passed... i'm as happy as i ever was...

i really think i have my life sussed

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hollygolightly:

of course you do...

see you in Thailand

Aug 20, 2005

blythe:

where are you mr..?..need a good old chat!! x x x

Aug 20, 2005

the shock is... it hasnt changed... if anything i keep feeling better... more positive

usually after a realisation like mine of the last few weeks and the happiness that follows it... i usually start to spiral down again... as reality of my situation sinks in and so the false happiness i had fades... i usually get miserable again

but...

not this time... its the real...
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born_to_die:

thats good mate keep[ going with it

and can i have some cos i fill a bit

lately.....

see you soon dude

Aug 18, 2005

donz:

yay,happy googie!!!

Aug 18, 2005

as my life continues to unfold... the happier i become about it...

i realise... and truly see for the first time, the plan laid out ahead of me... i know why im still here, in this place, this state of mind... all the mishaps, hold ups, un happiness, problems and delays over the past 5 years or so... all the synchronistic events of the last...
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bazookajules:

sounds interesting

will call u soon... when i get to darwin...

Aug 17, 2005

thebluelotus:

Yeah, I am. I was kind of worried though cause a few years ago (long time haha), I got my hair cut short and I looked so much younger than I was and I hated it. But this one suits me well.

And thank you veery much

Aug 17, 2005

ok this is a long post... the last two or three have all been...

but this is probably one of the most important things to happen to me in my entire life... and is certainly the most important conversation i have ever had...

so... the last few weeks have been an eye opener... a revelation of sorts...

i see things... the world, in a whole...
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iris1:

alright thats fair enough. You and I obviously dont share the same outlook on life.

I will never ever think or feel that I have wasted my life.

Take care, hope things get better for you soon

Aug 15, 2005

donz:

hello my googie!god talk about a mother of a conversation!
i personally think you have done alot of things to be proud of,and one persons idea of wasting your life will be really different to anothers.it is just how you view things i suppose.
anyway,what is my googie planning to do in the longterm???are you still gonna travel-im out of date on all this because we havent had a proper chat in ages!!!tell me all

its so cool about the tatt design,i can vouch for how wicked you are at it because of my swallows!

so anyway please get your ass down here soon ok???and let me know all that is going on in googeland!!!!!!!

Aug 15, 2005

i find myself not updating to often... i thought it was just me... but it seems a number of my friends (real ones that are also members) aren't updating as often either...

i fear the novelty may have worn off a little for some of them... more like they are not getting from it what they need and find it else where...

the good thing...
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kitty76:

hey thanks for visiting me..hehe and cool that u like my stuff.If you do find someone that can help me with a website i would be very grateful but i still wish i could do it myself...grrrrr....i need more time to study web design!!!!
well i didnt design my tattoo on the back but i did the one on my arm...sort of i new what i wanted and where i wanted...im very pleased with the results!!!
I guess i need to stop with the tattoos for a bit and concentrate in getting a job and some graphics done...also being very lazy!!!
anyways thanks for stopping by and keep in touch

Aug 13, 2005

exquisite:

Oh yeah I'm always eating still. Last night I checked out this BBQ with my best bud - I ended up eating six smokies and three servings of potatoe salad, and well, too many Jell-O shooters haha. Everyone kept asking me if I could eat more food 'cause they didn't want it going to waste...

Aug 14, 2005

what is a lie...

i know what the dictionary says and therefor technically what a lie is....

an intentionally false statement or impression

used with reference to a situation involving deception or founded on a mistaken impression

but its far more than that... what actually is it... what does it truly mean and so what really is it... its more than a deviation of the...
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opalia:

Hello matey, that's got to be the first intelligent thing i've read in about 2 months (all I read at the moment is magazines like Heat and OK!) its def good for you to do a bit of inner spring cleaning sometimes.

what's this seashell you're going on about?

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Aug 11, 2005

well... the weekend was fucking great.... a few things that brought me back to "i need to get the fuck out of england" but all in all my life feels good right about now

will update with some photos later, work to do at the moment, so will do it tonight... later

opalia:

why do you want to get out of England? And where you gonna go?
Southend scares me, it reminds me of my days as a 15/16yr old when we used to hang out and fancy all the cruiser type lads. Ooh I feel so much better now I've got that deep, dark secret off my chest.

Post the photos soon purlease.

Aug 8, 2005

opalia:

I tell you, I was so close to teetering over the edge into chavness.

Aug 9, 2005

ok... today is the today im off all expenses paid to photograph the surf comp and the bikini comp.... cool...

and add to that i get to go to all the comp parties and hang out with the bands... and get free shoes... the best part of it all...

things have been sooooo boring that im actually really looking forward to this... and like i...
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