is it want....no. I want to do many things as much as the other guy

is it fear....yes. we're all scared of failing, and not only failing but the responsibilities that follow the failure. Picking up where you left off. Be able to feed yourself.

is it need...don't think so.

is it worry...definately

is it passion...humans are made to have passion. why did so many of us lose it?

is it stupidity....no way. ignorance, naivity maybe.

is it desperation...sometimes

is it a lack of understanding..yes. don't know how to start, where to begin. how to get there and what to do after step 1.

i cant figure why i dont, when i really want to...me neither.

its funny youw rote this journal. I have been thinking similarly lately. I know that I should be preforming in some form. in any way. and yet I'm not. I don't kow where to start. I don't want to risk everything, get no nowhere, and have no money. its so silly. i'm only 21. i should do these htings while i can...and i feel too settled. i'm questioning so many things about myself its madness!

hey man just like me then....
but looking forward to the weekend, will have to hook up at some point cos i here your not going to the convention

see ya dude

....don't be lonely...I'm looking forward to seeing some graff from you real soon...will you post on here?...


...got to ask btw...what's lost all about last night...how scary was that geezer at the end....ewwwww....it's weird...but very intriguing....

you HAVE to come to the convention googie!
pretty please???

favourite sets would be a great idea. You should suggest it to the powers that be.

I'd highly recommend wasting about 4hours going through all of the SGs to see if you want to have different favs. Hows tricks hon? Hope you're good.

I def will give you a shout but I don't think I'm ever going to go down that road now for a while. C'est la vie. Maybe next year. I also need that long to think of a damn good theme.

[Edited on Sep 24, 2005 11:32AM]