steve_huge

the shock is... it hasnt changed... if anything i keep feeling better... more positive

usually after a realisation like mine of the last few weeks and the happiness that follows it... i usually start to spiral down again... as reality of my situation sinks in and so the false happiness i had fades... i usually get miserable again

but...

not this time... its the real thing... i just keep feeling happier, more positive... i really can see how its supposed to be, the path ahead or me and the way i'm supposed to walk it... and so the things around me that seemed so bad, and my problems over the last god knows how many years, have all of a sudden become my means to happiness

i genuinely feel good... (apart from feeling over weight... but im sorting that out as well... )

i am surprised i still feel this great...

and its how i know its the real deal... for the first time in ages, i feel genuine

speak soon guys and girls