ok i guess i'm due for a real update... as its been quite a while... and i ended up just pissing and moaning continuously in little short snippets...
be warned... i'm guessing this will be pretty mammoth...
so here goes...
where to start... ok i've been real down the last couple of weeks as i was supposed to have flown out to meet the sexy lady (bazookajules) at the end of april, but circumstances what they are, there was no way i could go.... thats really got me down, has been over a year now since i've seen her and the whole thing is just wearing me down more and more... add to that the paranoia i feel as she's out there enjoying herself, meeting new people so on and so forth (not to mention the fact that she's as sexy as hell), while i'm stuck here in miserable southend working away worrying that i'll lose her before i can get there... so it goes without saying that i'm already miserable every day before anything the day has to throw at me happens...
add to that the fact that all it seems i do is work all day every day for very little reward.... i know i know... everyone feels like that.... but i'm roughly doing 16-18 hr days, 6 - 7 days a week... it gets a little much, especially when you consider the bank balance doesn't remotely reflect the work i'm doing... so i get up feeling the way that i do... just to sit at a desk for the best part of the day...
so... all work and no play makes the huge one a very dull boy... add to that the fact i havent seen the lady for a year and had been building and building toward going... even told people i was and then due to circumstances out of my control, i couldnt go... so... for a while, i've been a miserable shit... well for ages actually
hence the state of my updates...
but... i'm pleased to say, life is looking up...
the most important thing is i got to speak to bazookajules, which really helped as we got to sort a lot out and say the way we were both feeling about me getting out to meet her. this really helped us both i think, and lifted quite a weight off of my shoulders... as i was really panicking that things may go south between us and i would lose her before getting there... but its seems i was panicking for nothing and thats made me feel a lot better...
next... i went and saw star wars with press tickets... man that film sucked so much arse i couldn't help but laugh... but.... the day was a good day.... really helped me chill, took the day off work, was really sunny and i just spent the day strolling round london...
add to that the fact that star wars is finally done, and although atrocious the saga is complete, and having watched the original trilogy since, the new films have done nothing to spoil the feelings the original trilogy conjure up in me...
now this may sound weird, but, apart from bazookajules the original trilogy are by far the biggest single influence in my life... they are what got me drawing and what shaped my interests and like as i developed in life... without those films i would not be who i am today and i think i would be worse of for never having seen them.... much the way i feel about the lady... i also wouldnt be who i am today without her and would be far worse off for not having met her and spent the best part of my life with her...
anyway... enough of the gay rubbish... on to the update...
next
bristol...
comic convention in bristol... again a really nice escape, and although work orientated i got to meet some of my peers and the public... i know this sounds contrived but it's really nice to meet the guys that buy the books and give something back... without them i would have no work and absolutely no way of meeting up with the lady any time soon...
so i really do appreciate the people that buy my work.... this meant that i ended up sketching for about 8 hrs all in all, over the weekend, but i actually enjoyed it as the guys and girls i did sketches for really appreciated what i did, and that was a nice feeling... one gripe... i dont agree with people that charge for sketches... its a pet peeve.... you get paid to draw the comic and these people pay those wages by buying your comics.... give them something back for christs sake... its a sketch... 10 minutes work... even if you're slow...
on with the weekend... i also spent a huge section of the weekend out of my skull... from wednesday nite to sunday nite i only ate half a burger, a plate of chips, four pieces of bread and two sandwiches... needless to say i spent the weekend totally hammered... worse than i have been in a very very VERY long time.... christ i was a mess....
the other bonus of the weekend... i got to meet McK and Nefertari... god damn, they were the nicest people in the world and a great couple... really, genuinely nice people (thanks guys i had a great time) McK did his best to try and be me
(i gave him my badge to get in on the sunday)... quite successfully as well... especially the point where they came over while i was sketching and accused me of being an impostor... hmmmm
but will definitely be seeing the guys again if i can, try and hook up at one of the meets maybe (thanks for a good weekend guys
)
and finally... last night... got to go to the jamiroquai album launch.... man he is a cool guy... and as outstanding as ever live... was a real good night
and it doesnt end there....
coming soon...
going to see tristian: my little psychic fella, which is always good, helps get my head straight
going to visit breeds and donz: which will be fun... get away frrom southend for the weekend and hang out with two of my favorite people...
getting my back finished: and its about time... has been half done for ages... and its free... even better
get my camera: not free, but i'm desperate to take up photography... wanna do bazookajules sets for her... plus we are also planning to do a book of her travels... naked of course so need the camera for those reasons... plus i really would like to make some sort of living from the photography as well
works picking up: looks like i'll be getting a lot more money for not a lot more work... if anything maybe even less work, which will help on my travels and so on
last but not least: i will be going to meet her (bazookajules) and i have to keep that in my mind... it may not be tomorrow, but it will be soon.... so i get to see the world, with my best friend, not to mention the sexiest girl in the world... naked... and having plenty of sex... and get to take photos of it all along the way...
all in all... lifes pretty sweet really
sorry about the length of the update... but it's been a while since i've been positive enough to write anything worthwhile
be warned... i'm guessing this will be pretty mammoth...
so here goes...
where to start... ok i've been real down the last couple of weeks as i was supposed to have flown out to meet the sexy lady (bazookajules) at the end of april, but circumstances what they are, there was no way i could go.... thats really got me down, has been over a year now since i've seen her and the whole thing is just wearing me down more and more... add to that the paranoia i feel as she's out there enjoying herself, meeting new people so on and so forth (not to mention the fact that she's as sexy as hell), while i'm stuck here in miserable southend working away worrying that i'll lose her before i can get there... so it goes without saying that i'm already miserable every day before anything the day has to throw at me happens...
add to that the fact that all it seems i do is work all day every day for very little reward.... i know i know... everyone feels like that.... but i'm roughly doing 16-18 hr days, 6 - 7 days a week... it gets a little much, especially when you consider the bank balance doesn't remotely reflect the work i'm doing... so i get up feeling the way that i do... just to sit at a desk for the best part of the day...
so... all work and no play makes the huge one a very dull boy... add to that the fact i havent seen the lady for a year and had been building and building toward going... even told people i was and then due to circumstances out of my control, i couldnt go... so... for a while, i've been a miserable shit... well for ages actually
hence the state of my updates...
but... i'm pleased to say, life is looking up...
the most important thing is i got to speak to bazookajules, which really helped as we got to sort a lot out and say the way we were both feeling about me getting out to meet her. this really helped us both i think, and lifted quite a weight off of my shoulders... as i was really panicking that things may go south between us and i would lose her before getting there... but its seems i was panicking for nothing and thats made me feel a lot better...
next... i went and saw star wars with press tickets... man that film sucked so much arse i couldn't help but laugh... but.... the day was a good day.... really helped me chill, took the day off work, was really sunny and i just spent the day strolling round london...
add to that the fact that star wars is finally done, and although atrocious the saga is complete, and having watched the original trilogy since, the new films have done nothing to spoil the feelings the original trilogy conjure up in me...
now this may sound weird, but, apart from bazookajules the original trilogy are by far the biggest single influence in my life... they are what got me drawing and what shaped my interests and like as i developed in life... without those films i would not be who i am today and i think i would be worse of for never having seen them.... much the way i feel about the lady... i also wouldnt be who i am today without her and would be far worse off for not having met her and spent the best part of my life with her...
anyway... enough of the gay rubbish... on to the update...
next
bristol...
comic convention in bristol... again a really nice escape, and although work orientated i got to meet some of my peers and the public... i know this sounds contrived but it's really nice to meet the guys that buy the books and give something back... without them i would have no work and absolutely no way of meeting up with the lady any time soon...
so i really do appreciate the people that buy my work.... this meant that i ended up sketching for about 8 hrs all in all, over the weekend, but i actually enjoyed it as the guys and girls i did sketches for really appreciated what i did, and that was a nice feeling... one gripe... i dont agree with people that charge for sketches... its a pet peeve.... you get paid to draw the comic and these people pay those wages by buying your comics.... give them something back for christs sake... its a sketch... 10 minutes work... even if you're slow...
on with the weekend... i also spent a huge section of the weekend out of my skull... from wednesday nite to sunday nite i only ate half a burger, a plate of chips, four pieces of bread and two sandwiches... needless to say i spent the weekend totally hammered... worse than i have been in a very very VERY long time.... christ i was a mess....
the other bonus of the weekend... i got to meet McK and Nefertari... god damn, they were the nicest people in the world and a great couple... really, genuinely nice people (thanks guys i had a great time) McK did his best to try and be me
(i gave him my badge to get in on the sunday)... quite successfully as well... especially the point where they came over while i was sketching and accused me of being an impostor... hmmmm
but will definitely be seeing the guys again if i can, try and hook up at one of the meets maybe (thanks for a good weekend guys
)
and finally... last night... got to go to the jamiroquai album launch.... man he is a cool guy... and as outstanding as ever live... was a real good night
and it doesnt end there....
coming soon...
going to see tristian: my little psychic fella, which is always good, helps get my head straight
going to visit breeds and donz: which will be fun... get away frrom southend for the weekend and hang out with two of my favorite people...
getting my back finished: and its about time... has been half done for ages... and its free... even better
get my camera: not free, but i'm desperate to take up photography... wanna do bazookajules sets for her... plus we are also planning to do a book of her travels... naked of course
so need the camera for those reasons... plus i really would like to make some sort of living from the photography as well
works picking up: looks like i'll be getting a lot more money for not a lot more work... if anything maybe even less work, which will help on my travels and so on
last but not least: i will be going to meet her (bazookajules) and i have to keep that in my mind... it may not be tomorrow, but it will be soon.... so i get to see the world, with my best friend, not to mention the sexiest girl in the world... naked... and having plenty of sex... and get to take photos of it all along the way...
all in all... lifes pretty sweet really
sorry about the length of the update... but it's been a while since i've been positive enough to write anything worthwhile
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I'm not sure if I like the pic I used for the ol' profile. But change is good, right?
Glad to see you're enjoying life. It's a refreshing change from everyone complaining all of the time (not that I'm one to talk heh).
love u sexy