steve_huge

ok... i should up date... i promised blythe i would....

its been an interesting, twisty turny few days...

i could have updated one day, which i nearly did... and literally by the next day that would have been completely invalid....

i've had women problems right across the board, in all ways imaginable... from the thought of never meeting someone i'd like... to then not thinking i'd meet someone i'd like whos single... to meeting three in a day.... to then thinking i dont actually want to anyway as its nothing but a distraction....

i've had shit with work, then great things with work, then shit with work again, then even better things with work... then extra work, then lost work, then extra work again

i've had plans for travel.... changed them, gone back to them, lost apartments, found better apartments, had great offers, offers cancelled, new offers, new ideas, things that have come to my attention and things i'd forgotten....

i've discovered new places, made break throughs in the photography, met amazing artists, found a sport i actually enjoy that will help keep me healthy, had revelations about friends, about myself, about those around me, about those a far

i've made new friends, new people to help me along the path, new people who could hinder me, i've seen people in ways i never thought i would, or could, i've seen people in ways i never hoped i would

i've made long distance friends i'd like to meet, i've made short distance friends i'd like to see again, i've discovered new techniques for art, ive discovered people that copuld teach me a thing or two, i've met people that make me a better person, i've discovered people that make me a worse person

i've realised life and people can be a myriad of things, from fair to unfair, from very kind, to very nasty, from painfully obvious to shockingly surprising, from tedious, to stimulating, from what you make it to completely out of your control.... but most of all its something that should be cherished... nurtured...no matter what it throws at you, you should take it by the hand and love it more than anything else you've ever loved, care for it, listen to it, learn from it, teach it, appreciate it.... and never take it for granted.... for its a wonderful and enchanting thing, that always has something new and interesting round the corner if you have your eyes open and have the passion to look for it

all in all.... there have been some serious ups and downs in a very short amount of time... some true eye openers for me and my surroundings

theres things i wish i could change.... changes i wish i could force, things i wish i could make go my way... but some things in life cant be forced... and should just be left to blossom on there own, or wither and die.... but neither outcome is a bad thing... as eitherway, thats just part of lifes majesty and teaching


it would be boring any other way