steve_huge

is it want....no. I want to do many things as much as the other guy

is it fear....yes. we're all scared of failing, and not only failing but the responsibilities that follow the failure. Picking up where you left off. Be able to feed yourself.

is it need...don't think so.

is it worry...definately

is it passion...humans are made to have passion. why did so many of us lose it?

is it stupidity....no way. ignorance, naivity maybe.

is it desperation...sometimes

is it a lack of understanding..yes. don't know how to start, where to begin. how to get there and what to do after step 1.

i cant figure why i dont, when i really want to...me neither.

its funny youw rote this journal. I have been thinking similarly lately. I know that I should be preforming in some form. in any way. and yet I'm not. I don't kow where to start. I don't want to risk everything, get no nowhere, and have no money. its so silly. i'm only 21. i should do these htings while i can...and i feel too settled. i'm questioning so many things about myself its madness!