Trying to define myself for others........for myself......and wishing someone...anyone would just be quiet long enough to hear what I have to say and learn who I really am. Tired of alone in the dark sometimes...even if that is where I am meant to be right now.
Take Me As I Am...
I was never the child in whose eyes were a world of love and trust.
The pleasures of innocence for me were always tainted with ashes and dust.
My protectors shattered my childhood and left me bleeding and bare.
I built myself walls of ice and snow and found my cold comfort there.
I needed to be the strong one for the child who was bleeding and dying inside.
There was no way for me to be soft or weak, her need could not be denied.
So I gave her a safe, dark place to rest, away from the tearing pains.
And took upon my stronger self, the necessary, more permanent stains.
The mask became the person and then the mask began to wear me instead.
At last I was able to face the world with a face erased of its mistrust and dread.
My eyes gave back reflections only of what you expected or wanted to see.
But never gave away the long lost secrets of who I might one day be known to be.
Over the years, as many do, I evolved and became somewhat more than my pain.
I released the scars of a victim and decided to try living one more time again.
I've felt the blood from wounds both old and new as my walls fell slowly one by one.
I've felt the urge to run and hide and realized my journey is nowhere near being done.
I am rough and inelegant, nothing that would inspire a man to stand fast and defend.
I am strong and proud, I love fiercely, I defend to the death and my loyalty knows no end.
Intensity and passion rule me when my body leads me into the touch of a tempting hand.
But though Pleasure may bring me to you....it will always be on my own that I WILL stand.
I will always try to mother the world, as a Healer and a Priestess it is my chosen Way.
I am a plain spoken woman, but you will always have honesty from me in all that I say.
Here I stand before you, revealed to your sight and honest in my flaws and fears.
I will make no apologies nor excuses. This is who I am...a woman of joy and tears.
Take Me As I Am...
I was never the child in whose eyes were a world of love and trust.
The pleasures of innocence for me were always tainted with ashes and dust.
My protectors shattered my childhood and left me bleeding and bare.
I built myself walls of ice and snow and found my cold comfort there.
I needed to be the strong one for the child who was bleeding and dying inside.
There was no way for me to be soft or weak, her need could not be denied.
So I gave her a safe, dark place to rest, away from the tearing pains.
And took upon my stronger self, the necessary, more permanent stains.
The mask became the person and then the mask began to wear me instead.
At last I was able to face the world with a face erased of its mistrust and dread.
My eyes gave back reflections only of what you expected or wanted to see.
But never gave away the long lost secrets of who I might one day be known to be.
Over the years, as many do, I evolved and became somewhat more than my pain.
I released the scars of a victim and decided to try living one more time again.
I've felt the blood from wounds both old and new as my walls fell slowly one by one.
I've felt the urge to run and hide and realized my journey is nowhere near being done.
I am rough and inelegant, nothing that would inspire a man to stand fast and defend.
I am strong and proud, I love fiercely, I defend to the death and my loyalty knows no end.
Intensity and passion rule me when my body leads me into the touch of a tempting hand.
But though Pleasure may bring me to you....it will always be on my own that I WILL stand.
I will always try to mother the world, as a Healer and a Priestess it is my chosen Way.
I am a plain spoken woman, but you will always have honesty from me in all that I say.
Here I stand before you, revealed to your sight and honest in my flaws and fears.
I will make no apologies nor excuses. This is who I am...a woman of joy and tears.
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kattrinak:
now why the heck have you changed your hair and taken out piercings? the new job then?
mrsted_stryker:
awwww honey that you!!! I am getting ready to change my post...I just had to get it out but I dont want too many people to comment on it!!! YOU understand! 