in a complicated sort of mind set right now. i feel like i have cabin fever and just need to go. i feel like i need to do something have some sort of adventure. if i had the money for gas i would get in my car right now and leave everything behind and just drive. i think i would go to cali, always wanted to see what its all about.
but today has been my first sober day from everything well besides my lovely newports. and i feel like i dont know what to do with myself.
i found myself calling my friend to see if she has any shit just so i could be in a different mind set once again. i have been clean off dope for a month now its the longest i have ever gone. but tonight i really wanted it but not bad enough to pull out money i didnt have and go to my other friends. but really now that i think about it are there's people really my friends? i dont know anymore i mean the only time i hung out with them is when i was usuing. were like fellow parasites feeding off each other in a sick world.
ah i dont know what the hell is wrong with me today.
but today has been my first sober day from everything well besides my lovely newports. and i feel like i dont know what to do with myself.
i found myself calling my friend to see if she has any shit just so i could be in a different mind set once again. i have been clean off dope for a month now its the longest i have ever gone. but tonight i really wanted it but not bad enough to pull out money i didnt have and go to my other friends. but really now that i think about it are there's people really my friends? i dont know anymore i mean the only time i hung out with them is when i was usuing. were like fellow parasites feeding off each other in a sick world.
ah i dont know what the hell is wrong with me today.
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I know you've been working and schooling your ass off, but call me anytime, woman! U know Im pretty much always around.