Well, long weekend is over. And the two, almost three days were great. Didn't really do much, but got to see my g/f. Friday we went to dinner and Spiderman 2. She stayed over, and then much of Saturday she had a migrane, so I stayed with her in bed and read while she slept. Then drove her home, ended up being late for work, but no biggie. Sunday the 4th I went over her family's house, they had mucho food, we went to the parade, and saw the fireworks. Then stayed over there, breakfast and Spidey 2 again with her family.
Now before the fireworks is where I f-ed up majorly. I made a comment to her, which was about her family's hearing, that didn't need to be said. I am ashamed I said, have no idea why I said it, and honestly I felt queasy right after saying it. I also couldn't get to sleep at first. It was really dumb of me. It wasn't really that bad though, and wasn't meant to be spiteful, but that's how it came out apparantly. So she got REALLY mad at me and wouldn't talk to me for some time. I apologized directly afterwards, later that night, this morning, and before I left her place in the afternoon. Overall though, she is still pissed.
::sigh::
I hate for her to be mad at me, she gets all quiet and doesn't say much. I am truely sorry, and I don't think there's much else I can do than the many apologies. But I can't help but be confused, if there is something I can do.
So I guess part of it was misplaced frustration. She likes to pick on me, and it's all completely in jest, but it adds up after a while, especially for someone who's self esteem isn't the biggest. I should have never directed anything towards the family though, they truley are great.
Overall....I'm an idiot....I was wrong....I'm sorry......but apparantly that's not enough right now. It's really eating me up...I guess I have to wait it out, aka the hardest part. I hate me sometimes. And now I have to go to work in the morning.
Sorry and thanks for reading whoever does
Now before the fireworks is where I f-ed up majorly. I made a comment to her, which was about her family's hearing, that didn't need to be said. I am ashamed I said, have no idea why I said it, and honestly I felt queasy right after saying it. I also couldn't get to sleep at first. It was really dumb of me. It wasn't really that bad though, and wasn't meant to be spiteful, but that's how it came out apparantly. So she got REALLY mad at me and wouldn't talk to me for some time. I apologized directly afterwards, later that night, this morning, and before I left her place in the afternoon. Overall though, she is still pissed.
::sigh::
I hate for her to be mad at me, she gets all quiet and doesn't say much. I am truely sorry, and I don't think there's much else I can do than the many apologies. But I can't help but be confused, if there is something I can do.
So I guess part of it was misplaced frustration. She likes to pick on me, and it's all completely in jest, but it adds up after a while, especially for someone who's self esteem isn't the biggest. I should have never directed anything towards the family though, they truley are great.
Overall....I'm an idiot....I was wrong....I'm sorry......but apparantly that's not enough right now. It's really eating me up...I guess I have to wait it out, aka the hardest part. I hate me sometimes. And now I have to go to work in the morning.
Sorry and thanks for reading whoever does