stepchild13

Wow, unexplainedily down the past 24 hours. I went to Kareoke (a friend hosts it), hung out with some friends, but by the end of the night I was just in the dumps. Part of it being that feeling of being lonely in a crowded room. I don't know. Then tonight, decided to go to the gym. Now I started up again two weeks ago, didn't get to go last week (three concerts and playoff hockey damnit), and decided to return tonight, hoping the excercise would help a bit, get some endorphins pumping. Instead I just kind of started getting really discouraged and feeling pathetic. There were lots of the muscle bound type there, and I couldn't help but feel like leaving and not really doing many weights. I just want to get healthier and more muscle toned, and to do that I have to go, but I feel awkward, it's like be damned either way. My friends that used to go with me both quit, as one decided to up and move 30 minutes away, and the other has too much school work. ::sigh:: So I must brave it alone. So now I'm even more down. Sorry, just felt like venting.