stellablue1

so i put 500 miles on my car this weekend. all for my brother. and he was broke so i gave him money. damn i'm nice.
did some manual labor in our basement. had some major foundation problems so we did some mortering, pour some concrete after we broke up the old stuff. put some drylock stuff up on the walls. i was working so hard i rubbed the skin off my knuckles...ouch!
then we built some shelves....it was fun because neither my brother nor myself really knew what we were doing. but shelves are up and are sturdy so i think we did well.
then my mom told us she's 90% sure she's going for a divorce. now, i've wanted my parents to get a divorce since i was 13-14yrs old. and i think the seperation would be the most beneficial decision. but it's the little things i'm worrying about. and i'm driving myself nuts about it. mainly because it will be me to watch out for my mom and for my dad. my dad's a functioning alcoholic but has never dealt with the day-to-day bills. and my mom's a functioning neurotic. i dont think i can live with her anymore just for the sanity of our relationship with one another. so there's another scary thought. maybe it's the selfishness in me but i dont want to pay rent!!! but damnit i need my own space. but i wouldn't want to get a place with just anyone. uuuuggghhh.....

share your thoughts with me to let me know i'm not the only person to ever go through this stuff....