It happens from time to time and it seems to be happening again. I don't know what spurs it or makes it grow in strength but I become filled with the urge to disconnect.

I feel like pushing my best friends away, screaming at them to stop the pain they cause my head. But they don't do anything to me, they're just there and that causes me to hurt.

I still laugh, I still aside myself for the sake of humor, but it feels more empty than anything else. When I'm alone as I am now, I feel fine. Humor is funny, life is not overly unpleasant. The only troubling thoughts are the ones concerning how I feel about the people around me. If I wasn't thinking about them I'd be all smiley and happy.

I don't know how it is that I can be told I think too much. It's not really something under specific control or easily referenced in the instruction manual.