stay_up_late

possibly maybe is an incredible song
devil in the white city is an incredible book
but now i am incredibly bored..and have reverted back to being sorta lonely.

i need someone to connect with on a close personal level, i haven't had that in far too long, i think uhm..what are they called? oh right, girlfriends. i am terribly depressed to think that i can't even talk right to an e-journal here let alone to a friend or even a girlfriend. people don't want to get close to you when they don't understand you and sometimes i don't even understand myself. i know there is fun in every nook and crevice of this world when you're in the right mindset but i can't focus on a damn thing to save my life, especially not a wonderful mood where everything seems delightful. because for some reason, nothing does.

i dunno...do any of you feel that way sometimes? haha as if anyone reads this here..i need to bust out with some real peepses on here. even my friends who are on here haven't said hi. hurts.

garv