starstealer

happiest girl in the world! i heard from daniel! god i love him so much. gerard way was all over tv the other day! just watched HiHi Puffy AmiYumi, the best show in the world. it's amazing the little things that perks us up. i still want to die though. i know, i know just shut up and slit your wrist or do something, OD...
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today i actually didn't want to kill myself. today wasn't so bad. it was actually a nice day were we did what we always do on this holiday. for one day we are not a broken family and i am not a broken girl. and we don't pretend everything is alright, everything is alright. we play chess all day (my brother, my dad and i)...
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my mom is native and loves thanksgiving. my dad is muslim (not practicing) and loves thanksgiving. i wonder what that means. probably nothing. so i have been having strange dreams lately that made me realize something BIG about myself that i can't tell ne1 but basically i figured out the root of all my boy problems. so neway i have to get my cds back...
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i don't know if it's desperation that i feel that i need him now or what. i really just want to be free of those sort of things, ya'know love. i've decided to not have sex anymore or at least until i figure out who i am so i am not using sex to try to figure out myself or as a substitute for love...
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it happened in safeway. it's never happened to me like that before. there they were. buying groceries together. so happy. so in love. with huge smiles on their faces talking like they were the only 2 people in the world. and there i was and i was so frozen in the moment i couldn't spare myself any humilation and they caught me staring. and i...
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i hate ny life. i did meet someone .

Tangled Up In Me
by Skye Sweetnam

Album : Noise From The Basement


You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kickin' the coke machine
I'm the one that's honkin' at you cause I left late again

Hey, Hey, Hey
Can't you see I want you
By the way I push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow by the way...
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so this is it. no more.
no more guys that will hurt me because they think i will hurt them.
no more guys that don't show their emotions.
no more liars.
no more fakes.
no more guys that try to change me.
no more guys that make me wait for them.
no more waiting for anyone.
no more mama's boys.
no more pretentious losers.
no...
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I don't feel good. All I can think about is pancakes. Last week it was eggs. And the week before that spaghetti. I ate 10 pancakes just now and I wonder how I got so fat.

I hope Kris calls back because I really want to see how she is. I need to get a hold of Jeaneece too. I should call Sam but I just don't feel good. She is probably keeping the phone lines clear for boy toy neway.