starstealer

it happened in safeway. it's never happened to me like that before. there they were. buying groceries together. so happy. so in love. with huge smiles on their faces talking like they were the only 2 people in the world. and there i was and i was so frozen in the moment i couldn't spare myself any humilation and they caught me staring. and i had to be there dressed in single girl clothing, ya'know sweat pants, hoodie, slippers, hair thrown up in a bun. and she had to look perfect on his arm. and they had to smile and wave with a slight "i am so sorry look". and there i stood with my ben and jerry's ice cream, my chocolate cookies and a bunch of other foods that said "it's a blockbuster night, again". that's when i understood why he picked her; because he loved her. and i was just a mistake. he regretted what happened with us and if he could do it over we would of never went to his room that night. i would like to think i don't love him nemore.
single to my friends is a curse. every weekend they introduce me to one of their boyfriends single friends. and i just sit in a daze. when they ask about me i say something stupid like "i like kitties" because i really like cats and when they compliment me i get nervous and go to the bathroom. i have been drowning myself in shoujo and romance novels. call me brigette jones. i am lonely and what happened in safeway broke my heart.