starstealer

*sigh*. getting ditched is never fun. and although it's harsh it let's you see something for what it is. don't you hate it when everyone is right? i guess i am just a dumb slut after all. but enough self pity. everytime something like that happens it makes you a little smarter. and now i am a little smarter than i was yesterday morning. on...
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i want more than anything in this world to go to nice and just lie by the beach and smoke. maybe read a good chapbook of surrealist erotic poetry. smoke french cigarettes and drink cosmo's. that's what i want. more than anything.

well today in a word sucked. no wait i found out i am really getting out of this town. which is cool. i mean it this time when i say i will never come back. my mom said for christmas she got me things i would need to live on my own; here's hoping for pots and pans!

today i asked myself a question: can i go a day without being thrown up on? answer: no. kids-237. me-0.

neway life is really stupid right now and well i am kind of sick of it. i mean not to the point of suicide but to the point of sort of just looking at life as something i have to just get through. like each...
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ex-girlfriends suck, amoung other things.

neway i am torn between classes, my own place, a car, or a major b-day blow out. it's hard to say. life, go fig.

21 is a big deal and since running into landa and shasta i totally want to have a big party. it kinda makes me laugh, the mix of people. we have the white chocolate crowd, the...
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*sigh*

I'm Sensitive
I was thinking that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things that you say
It doesn't take a talent to be mean
You words can crush things that are unseen

So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way

You always tell me that it's impossible
To be respected, and be a girl
Why's...
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tea and cigarrettes

i hate being lied to. like people think that you can't handle the truth. i hate looking like a fool. i hate feeling bad, i hate feeling at all.
today trevor called but he called the house i wasn't home. he e-mailed me and asked me what i wanted for christmas, anything no price limit. i want a car but can't ask for that although...
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i hate it. i am officially one of those girls. i bought a "self-help" book today i can't believe it. so look in the fridge, cookies, ice cream, lots of chocolate. look at the reading selection. oh god this is it!

Don't you hate the truth? Like when you realize the only place you can truly get recognition for your art is in SF, NYC, or Paris. None of which you can afford because well you are artist. Sometimes I think, "Just get on a bus and go and try to make it." But it's impossible. I should register myself as an artist with the Northern...
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what's the best thing about this time of year? CHOCOLATE COVERED MACADAMIA NUTS AND CHOCOLATE AND MACADAMIA NUT COFFEE!