I feel totally lost.
i dont know how to describe it really except for ive been stuck in a world more like created in my head.....on a virtual level.... and not a realistic one. I have been put thru so much for so many months .... i have turned into someone that is not me... my spirit is not right.... i dont feel the same.... i feel broken and isolated. And ive done this all to myself. all by living my live inside a fucking virtual game instead of real LIFE.
And today it came crashing down on me.
the person i have been super close to ......leaving them behind ..and possible the game forever ... i dont even know where to pick myself up.I know it may sound stupid to some because it is a game,but it got far more complicated than that. i became my reality.
what do you do when ur reality has suddenly become lost and ur REAL reality has been so distorted you dont even know what to do with yourself? ;(
this is a terrible feeling.
I am extremely lucky i have my boyfriend in my REAL LIFE.......because w/o him i dont know what id do. i probably would do something bad. He's a very positive .....self love....pma kind of person.......I already have what i need......why have i been trying to escape it?
i feel so fucked up right now.
i dont know how to describe it really except for ive been stuck in a world more like created in my head.....on a virtual level.... and not a realistic one. I have been put thru so much for so many months .... i have turned into someone that is not me... my spirit is not right.... i dont feel the same.... i feel broken and isolated. And ive done this all to myself. all by living my live inside a fucking virtual game instead of real LIFE.
And today it came crashing down on me.
the person i have been super close to ......leaving them behind ..and possible the game forever ... i dont even know where to pick myself up.I know it may sound stupid to some because it is a game,but it got far more complicated than that. i became my reality.
what do you do when ur reality has suddenly become lost and ur REAL reality has been so distorted you dont even know what to do with yourself? ;(
this is a terrible feeling.
I am extremely lucky i have my boyfriend in my REAL LIFE.......because w/o him i dont know what id do. i probably would do something bad. He's a very positive .....self love....pma kind of person.......I already have what i need......why have i been trying to escape it?
i feel so fucked up right now.
Maybe you just need to go for a walk.
(You are probably tired of my responses)