starlastarlove

omg. the guy in this game i have gotten close to.... the virtual game i play.....is seriously making my life hell. i mean yes we care for each other and all that as much as we can being it the internet but its gotten to the point where its effecting me irl so much. he has so many problems, and the weight of it is crushing me.im more depressed...thinking bad thoughts, even suicidal things sometimes :/ i hate to admit that over something online but he's gotten inside my head and i dont feel happy or like me anymore at all. infact ever since i started the game its self.......anyway half of the time i dont think he's telling me the truth. i've caught him in lies. Which i hate. I know his past is shady...drugs,illegal stuff etc......all stuff i want nothing to do with.SUCH NEGATIVE BULLSHIT. so why am i putting up with it? ...............................