I am up, tired, and can't sleep, and I have to be at work this AM! Shit! I finally went out again for the first time in forever, and it was ok, but I want to get back into DC clubbing! Hmmm...I really should go jogging, but it might be cold at 01:39 in the am; it gives me time alone to think, but sometimes I get so damn tired I can't think about anything but the fact that I can't breathe! Tomorrow is heavy leg day, and I will be exhausted...at least with a smith machine the weight won't fall on me in front of all the boys! I need to take more pics, but finding someone to take them when I have time is so hard! I wonder if all hot guys are asses? You know what pisses me off about people in general? When you date someone for a while, and then after they promise you the world, you get attached, maybe even get a RING, they tell you they don't think mommy and daddy would like them dating out of their culture?? I now have this anger toward his culture--and you know what else; he is half american as it is!! His loss! I need a man, not a boy! Wow, I must be tired. 