a new day and new beginnings here - i shouldn't be feeling so good but a wake-up from my boyfriend kncoking on my door this morning brought my day to a terrific start. from there we ran around the city running errand and doing bits of this and that, stopping for pizza buffet for lunch (yum!) and then i gave him my super magic massage and put him to sleep (his dad's in the hospital so he needs so relaxtion - his dad will be fine though) so the cuteness i call my boyfriend is alseep in his bed (my bed that i'm borrowing). the new beginnings are that i went and made an appointment for SSI disability to help me get out of debt (pretty sure after five hospital stays i qualify) and am going to move out of my house as i refuse to live with a stranger and a roommate and back in with my mom until i can raise some funds for an apartment of my own - or possibly of brian's and my own 
here's a pic of just exactly how cute we are (taken at stupid wakarusa):
it's kind of a small one but you can see us - we're too cute and soo in love again. so even though it seems like i'm taking several steps backwards (moving back in with my mom) i feel like it's going to give me a more stable enviornment in which to become more stable myself. it may be for a couple months - it may be for longer. it doesn't matter. i'm actually taking two steps forwards while moving half a step back. by adding some supprt and stability (and a lack of a huge rent and utilities) i'll be able to save up for that dream apartment in mid-town and maybe convince my mom to co-sign for me. wouldn't that be nice. but it also means i'll have to be really secretive about my internet usage - i don't think my ultra conservative mom and ste[p-dad would like SG much or BL for that matter. so i'll have to keep it under wraps, but no big. the only bad thing is that i can't take my cats with me, so i'll have to find temporary homes for them in the meantime. anyway, enough for now. just wanted to let everyone know how much better i was feeling. thanks for all the love and support. and with any luck, in a year's time or less, i will be an apprentice.
edit: i tried really hard to put my pic in there but it didn't show up. it's in my stargirl's pic's folder, too. bahh! technology. someone tell me what i did wrong, please.
here's a pic of just exactly how cute we are (taken at stupid wakarusa):
it's kind of a small one but you can see us - we're too cute and soo in love again. so even though it seems like i'm taking several steps backwards (moving back in with my mom) i feel like it's going to give me a more stable enviornment in which to become more stable myself. it may be for a couple months - it may be for longer. it doesn't matter. i'm actually taking two steps forwards while moving half a step back. by adding some supprt and stability (and a lack of a huge rent and utilities) i'll be able to save up for that dream apartment in mid-town and maybe convince my mom to co-sign for me. wouldn't that be nice. but it also means i'll have to be really secretive about my internet usage - i don't think my ultra conservative mom and ste[p-dad would like SG much or BL for that matter. so i'll have to keep it under wraps, but no big. the only bad thing is that i can't take my cats with me, so i'll have to find temporary homes for them in the meantime. anyway, enough for now. just wanted to let everyone know how much better i was feeling. thanks for all the love and support. and with any luck, in a year's time or less, i will be an apprentice.
edit: i tried really hard to put my pic in there but it didn't show up. it's in my stargirl's pic's folder, too. bahh! technology. someone tell me what i did wrong, please.
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"I have learned two lessons in my life: first, there are no sufficient literary, psychological, or historical answers to human tragedy, only moral ones. Second, just as despair can come to one another only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings."
Amen, Beautiful...