stargirl17

ugh, all this hard work has made me so tired and yesterday i had to clean after an 8 hour shift of getting the store ready for the big opening on wedns. the 18th. by cleaning i mean our basement flooded and my boyfriend and i had to pick up all the floating debris from the construction workers and throw it away and suck up all the water with a shop vac. not fun after a long hard day. apparently, the construction guys "didn't" unplug the sumppump which would have saved us a lot of hassle - yeah right. i think the matress and box spring down there are ruined now and lots of sentimental stuff in boxes too. double ugh. tomorrow it's across the street to anthropologie to learn the registers so that on wedns. i can ring people up. i wasn't supposed to work wedns. but picked up a shift for a girl because i just can't say no and i really need the money. so far the store looks really great, and it's right down the street from the MAC store so i can spend all my money at urban and at MAC on makeup. yeah. no. i have to save at least half of each paycheck or at least use it to pay off the r'rents and my credit card and my car which looks so cute dolled up in her skull and crossbones sticker on the back window instead of the icky fairy that was falling apart and the even worse william jewell college sticker. god how i hate my school. fuck all those snobby kids anyway. they'll probably come to the plaza anbd see me and try to act like we're all friendly and stuff - i hate people like that, i really do. if you ignore me on campus, don't suddenly treat me like a buddy because i work in a halfway decent store. or maybe they won't recognize me without my hair, which is probably closer to the truth, though it is getting longer. i need to update my profile pic since my face is thinner now and my hair is longer and cuter. i think my friend brad will take some pics of me with my camera - he knows how to work it better than i do apparently. he took some great photos of my jewelry the other day. we planned the layout of my webpage last night and now i have to price my stuff and write a bio and a welcome and stuff pretty soon. then i have to figure out how exactly i'm going to pay him . . . but since he's a friend hopefully he'll let me do it in installments instead of all at once.

am excited at the prospect of sgkc party - i want to meet all the kc members. i hope i'll be able to go, though, since i work every fucking day of the week. that's why i'm so exhausted, i think. too much work and then housework when i get home. but now no brian to look forward to when i get home. no brian to snuggle with in the mornings or to tell me to turn off the fucking alarm clock and get the fuck out of bed when it's 6:30 and i just want to cover my head with a pillow. his living with his dad is only temporary but it still really sucks. i teared up in the car on the way home from work when i realized what was happening. he's going to be 35 minutes away now. i won't get to see him every day. sometimes i know i take him for granted too much, but i really do appreciate his silliness and his cheering me up and making me laugh when i want to cry. it's just a lousy thirty minute drive but i'm going to miss him so much. i guess with both of us being so busy i won't see him that much either, so we'll both really have to make an effort in this relationship. but we've made it this far so i'm sure we can make it through this. sigh. well, it's work at 8 am sharp, so i've gotta be lame and get some shut-eye or i'll be a zombie tomorrow. take care everyone.