stargirl17

well, my job is taking over my life - i have not touched my bracelets for three weeks and have not been tot he gym, either. i am not that fat - i am ugly but not that fat - got asked twice in last week at work if preggers - yeah right. i told them when asked when i was due: not for at least another ten yerars. ok, ok. i wish i said that. instead i tried to make them feel better for making me feel bad. hello! total doormat here. step on me please. too many politics at work, too. so i'm going to the urban outfitters job fair on tues. morning and taking a tardy for work so that maybe i can get another different crappy job where at least i can show my ink and not drive quite so far. or maybe they'll hate me and not hire me and i'll be stuck at current crappy job where most of the people have a real stick up their ass. there are like three nice people that i work with. the other 100 are asshole jerk heads from hell. and yes, i'm feeling about two right now so i can talk however i want. anyway, is anyone interested in my bracelets? if so, i will re-list some on e-bay. otherwise, they will continue to collect in a pile at my house where i wear them once in a while and mostly just wonder glumly if anyone will ever want them. so please say someone, anyone will buy a bracelet if i post them on ebay again!!!!! i'll even sell them at cost - i just want to be able to sell some so that i can continue to make them cause i have some great ideas for some new ones coming up - just wait for some pics in about a week or so. that's my rant for today. hope everyone else's jobs suck and that they have no time for their passions or families or boyfriends or friends. actually, speaking of friends, i now have a couple. amazing. simply amazing. me, the big loser that i am, has real life friends. now if i could juist convince some online, cyberspace people to be my friends. . . i need to learn that hypnosis bullshit or something. then maybe even fat stupid ugly girls like me could be SGs too, not just members. but right now i don't even want to see me naked, so it's off to the gym tomorrow and on to soem new meds that will stop making me into some kind of balloon character. arghh. later.