You can never go back.
Life's not quite as depressing as Cowboy Bepop, but they get spaceships so who's really better off?
I really don't know what I'm doing, but I'm doing it with assurance and that's almost the same right?
A million little hurts, or one big hurt? Which would you pick? I think one big hurt. Like... being punched in the face would hurt like hell, but getting a million little paper cuts would suck a lot more. See?
I lapsed on my caffeine purge yesterday. I needed some focus to think things through and two cans of Cherry Coke just disappeared. oops. So my stomach feels like shit today and my head hurts. Damn. Starting over I guess.
I've been exercising daily. I'm helping my mother get back in shape by riding my bike 3.5 miles with her each day this week.
I still need to lift weights tonight to finish my healthy thing that I've been trying to do.
I've not eaten much today. My body is fucked up pretty hard from anxiety.
I'm going waterskiing tomorrow. I'm going to die.
Life's not quite as depressing as Cowboy Bepop, but they get spaceships so who's really better off?
I really don't know what I'm doing, but I'm doing it with assurance and that's almost the same right?
A million little hurts, or one big hurt? Which would you pick? I think one big hurt. Like... being punched in the face would hurt like hell, but getting a million little paper cuts would suck a lot more. See?
I lapsed on my caffeine purge yesterday. I needed some focus to think things through and two cans of Cherry Coke just disappeared. oops. So my stomach feels like shit today and my head hurts. Damn. Starting over I guess.
I've been exercising daily. I'm helping my mother get back in shape by riding my bike 3.5 miles with her each day this week.
I still need to lift weights tonight to finish my healthy thing that I've been trying to do.
I've not eaten much today. My body is fucked up pretty hard from anxiety.
I'm going waterskiing tomorrow. I'm going to die.
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As for the choice between one big pain and a million little ones: that depends. It depends on whether I'd know at the time that the one big pain was the only pain I'd have to undergo, or whether the individual little pains were going to continue in a long succession. With the gift of perfect foresight, it's much easier to choose one big pain. From there, your life can only go up.
But we don't know. We only get to look back on things. The future's forever a black box. And so, without knowing, it's impossible really to make that choice. All we can do is pretend.
It's an internal job move, so either way I'm still working for them. It's just a matter of whether or not I can convince them they should be paying me way more.