stare

i havent slept much in the past few days. i dont know why. last night i made a choice that maybe i wish i had the chance to make over again. i keep thinking that its the best this way and i try to smile through my tears. inside i want to scream until my heart bursts. that little voice in my mind is clawing out my insides. there was this experiment in psychology class once, to determine the type of person you are. do you want one marshmellow or two? you can have one now, or wait 2 minutes and have two. i want two.....but then again.....i dont even like marshmellows......