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Sunday May 11, 2008

May 11, 2008
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I'm OK - my uncle died on Queens day - he'd had cancer for 3 years, several operations with complication etc., but it never hit me how bad it was until it was over. In a few weeks after his last doctors appointment it was over, just like that. Amazing how cancer reduces a strong, loudmouth human being to nothing.
To top the event, the cremation would most likely be attended by my mom's side of the family that I hadn't seen for 10 years - the only contact we had was last year, when they called my mom a month after her father had died to tell her he'd been cremated a month before. Yup, that's my family. Very attentative.......
In the end, the grief was worse than anything - the most dreaded member of the family didn't turn up and when looking at my grandmother (tho I mostly refer to her as my mom's mother now), my aunt (of whom I am the spitting image) and niece, I felt nothing. Which was weird enough for me to realize - no hate, no grief, just.. nothing - and I cried as I said my last goodbye to my uncle walking past the coffin.

xx
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martijn:
Shit frown

Weird thing about cancer is you do the grief almost beforehand. So much different from accidents (especially young people).

That time was about your uncle, so I guess it's good to leave the family out of the emotional equation.

Condolences... Was it a nice ceremony?
May 12, 2008
martijn:
Goed hoor smile

Laatste tijd wel veel bezig met andere baan zoeken... Ben deze echt zat frown Maar een weekend naar Berlijn en een week vakantie daarna heeft zeker geholpen wink

Jammer dat je de laatste tijd hier niet zoveel meer bent... Komt dat echt door alle SG drama hier? surreal
May 15, 2008

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