bad news, Bodhi dog's lymphoma has developed a drug resistance, his lymph nodes are all swollen up and he is breathing really heavy. He is still eating, drinking and active for now, but I am afraid it is getting down to our last few weeks with him here. We are just trying to love on him alot and let him know how much we love him.
I had that paragraph last but decided I didn't want to end on such a sad note so I rearranged...
My boss is retiring and they are having a party, it starts in 10 minutes, but Josie just went down for a nap 1/2 hr ago, so I will be late. Oh well....they are having food, I made a bean dip that is all fat free and really yummy, with baked tortilla chips. I figure I'll miss out on the food part since I am going to be late so I ate some of it...mmmmmm....its refried beans (fat free vegetarian) and low fat shredded cheese and FF sour cream mixed with taco seasoning and then some diced tomatos on top and black olive slices. You just layer everything, its super tasty and good for you. It didn't hurt my stomach. Thats a good thing. Yesterday at work someone brought in carrot cake with cream cheese frosting, it looked SO good, but I had just a little teeny, tiny bite and my tummy started hurting, just a little, not bad. It must have been LOADED with fat. It got the craving for carrot cake in my taste buds, so I had to find a recipe for one without fat. I did, it was super easy, too. It just finished baking so I have to make some frosting for it, and we'll see how it is. Maybe this not being able to eat fat thing will turn me into a cook. Maybe I will lose weight, too. Although I am not supposed to think about that since I am growing a new bambino/a.
Its nice to be able to think about food again. Even if I have to be really careful about what I eat, at least I can eat. I am even feeling glad to be a mom again, its hard to take care of a baby when you are so sick, even when said baby is as ADORABLE as Miss J. and I have to be honest there were a few days there that I was REALLY wishing to not be pregant, I felt guilty about those thoughts, but now I am glad again.
I had that paragraph last but decided I didn't want to end on such a sad note so I rearranged...
My boss is retiring and they are having a party, it starts in 10 minutes, but Josie just went down for a nap 1/2 hr ago, so I will be late. Oh well....they are having food, I made a bean dip that is all fat free and really yummy, with baked tortilla chips. I figure I'll miss out on the food part since I am going to be late so I ate some of it...mmmmmm....its refried beans (fat free vegetarian) and low fat shredded cheese and FF sour cream mixed with taco seasoning and then some diced tomatos on top and black olive slices. You just layer everything, its super tasty and good for you. It didn't hurt my stomach. Thats a good thing. Yesterday at work someone brought in carrot cake with cream cheese frosting, it looked SO good, but I had just a little teeny, tiny bite and my tummy started hurting, just a little, not bad. It must have been LOADED with fat. It got the craving for carrot cake in my taste buds, so I had to find a recipe for one without fat. I did, it was super easy, too. It just finished baking so I have to make some frosting for it, and we'll see how it is. Maybe this not being able to eat fat thing will turn me into a cook. Maybe I will lose weight, too. Although I am not supposed to think about that since I am growing a new bambino/a.
Its nice to be able to think about food again. Even if I have to be really careful about what I eat, at least I can eat. I am even feeling glad to be a mom again, its hard to take care of a baby when you are so sick, even when said baby is as ADORABLE as Miss J. and I have to be honest there were a few days there that I was REALLY wishing to not be pregant, I felt guilty about those thoughts, but now I am glad again.
Also congrates on your second! I can relate... my second and third are 22 mo. apart. It's hard to keep up with the kids when you're not feeling well.
Spiritrual Midwifery was my constant companion during preg. # 1! Have you read Birthing From Within by Pamela England? I can't recommend it highly enough!
Are you an L&D nurse in the birth center you mentioned? It sound like a great place! I've never heard of any red tent parties around here, such a great idea!
PS... I felt ambivilant when I discovered my 3rd preg... in fact I cried all day
I think those feelings are VERY natural. I finally learned to embrace all pregnant feelings by the third. Went to a little class taught by Pam England that go around that was very profound.
My pregnancies and births have taught me more than any other experience in my life. Quite a transformation, eh?
Hope you are feeling well!