starbelliedboy

Weekends like this make me think that we might just be able to sew things up some day...Maybe sooner than later. I mean... Really, for the most part, this weekend was really nice. I got to spend a lot of time alone with her... Maybe I'm just making something out of nothing, but every time she calls me babe, god... I can't resist thinking like this. Like it might mean something. I don't know...

I know she's still interested in girls... And whatever. I mean... If she's still doing stuff with me, I guess it wouldn't be too horrible, and really, I think it's just something she feels like she has to do. It's been a while, and she's probably wondering if it'd still be fun, if she'd still like it, and all that. I mean... maybe, just MAYBE, she'd date another girl, and decide once and for all that she wouldn't be happy with one, and she'd come back to me.

But then, maybe I'm just convenient for her right now. Somebody she can cuddle up with all she wants and not have to worry about me getting attached because she told me not to. I mean, she has to know that that's pretty much already happened, but she can cast me off guilt free because of that preface... Sometimes I know she can be that heartless, but then, sometimes she's so vulnerable, and I feel like she could need me again.