Oh jeez. I don't know what this means. Being the pining, mildly obsessive gentleman that I am, I check Tiffany's myspace profile every once in a while. Just to see what's going on with her and all... Today, I noticed that she made changes to some of it. "Who I want to meet: The love of my life, someone who I can just freakin, hang out with...and fuck every now and then. But I don't want to be with them all the time, and I don't want to plan my future with them any time in the near future. I do want to love agian."
That's funny, because those are some of the reasons we broke up. And that makes me think that she wrote this because she knows I check, and it looks like her listing the terms if we get back together... What the fuck does that mean? Is it for me? This is drilling a hole in my paranoid little brain. Should I send her a message saying "Yes, I accept!" No, that'd obviously be a 'tarded idea... But I'm thinking it might not be so bad to acknowledge that I saw that, and ask if it means what I think it does... God, it sucks being so pathetic. Now I'm conflicted. I've got this hope that I'm right and it means something and we'll be something again, and also the crushing fear that it means nothing, and that's her explaining why it'll never be again... Well, I've got Anj to read it over and talk to her about it.. I dont' know what kinda results I'll get, but at least that's a soft choice that won't be too messy.
That's funny, because those are some of the reasons we broke up. And that makes me think that she wrote this because she knows I check, and it looks like her listing the terms if we get back together... What the fuck does that mean? Is it for me? This is drilling a hole in my paranoid little brain. Should I send her a message saying "Yes, I accept!" No, that'd obviously be a 'tarded idea... But I'm thinking it might not be so bad to acknowledge that I saw that, and ask if it means what I think it does... God, it sucks being so pathetic. Now I'm conflicted. I've got this hope that I'm right and it means something and we'll be something again, and also the crushing fear that it means nothing, and that's her explaining why it'll never be again... Well, I've got Anj to read it over and talk to her about it.. I dont' know what kinda results I'll get, but at least that's a soft choice that won't be too messy.
Personally, I don't chase. If I don't remain friends with an ex, they're permenantly out of my life. I don't waste my time on people who don't know what they want or jerk me around.
And I NEVER should have had a girlfriend before the age of 25, because just about anyone I dated under that age had no concept of what they wanted, much less of themselves, emotionally.