Ok, lately... I guess I am fooling around with one of the girls that I was seeing previously. The other one just kinda fizzled out, and that's fine. This one seems to be working out pretty well for what it is. It's pretty much a friendship with benefits, but she's... not really the type of person I would choose as a friend. I mean, don't get me wrong, she's a really nice person and I have nothing at all against her, she just doesn't have the darkness and/or wit that tends to connect me to people. I guess the sex isn't bad, so that's ok, but I'm sorta worried about her getting in the way of me bettering myself and finding somebody I could really care about. I mean, I've told her that she's not really the type of person I could date and fall in love with, but that doesn't necessarily mean she's really understood and accepted it. For St. Paddy's day, we'll both be going on a pub crawl, and I feel (probably wrongly, but nonetheless) that it could be a good time to meet women... But there she will be, preventing this from happening. Even though we're not exclusive, I'd still be a huge dick to hit on somebody when she's around.
I guess she's just one more example of me just settling into what takes the least effort. On that note, I still don't have a new job. Still working for the liquor store. Things could be far, far worse, but they SHOULD be better. Ugh. I HAVE however, lined up a shop steward job (on the side) for the liquor store union. And I believe there is an internship (which I'd assume is paid, otherwise, fuck it) over the summer. If I could get a job with them, that would be fantastic. I'm fairly certain working for the union would pay significantly more than I'm making now, and I'd finally be able to feel like I've escaped this blue collar business. Not to say that that's not a necessary and perfectly respectable place to be, it's certainly not for me. I'm an intellectual. Maybe not that great of one, but still. I need to be in a job where I will use my skills, not just exert force in some way or another. I'd like to look into being a sales person for a liquor company. I could really use some help figuring out how to get my life together. I need a mentor or something.
Ah well. Things are improving. At a glacial pace, but it's better than nothing. I'll get where I need to be someday.
I guess she's just one more example of me just settling into what takes the least effort. On that note, I still don't have a new job. Still working for the liquor store. Things could be far, far worse, but they SHOULD be better. Ugh. I HAVE however, lined up a shop steward job (on the side) for the liquor store union. And I believe there is an internship (which I'd assume is paid, otherwise, fuck it) over the summer. If I could get a job with them, that would be fantastic. I'm fairly certain working for the union would pay significantly more than I'm making now, and I'd finally be able to feel like I've escaped this blue collar business. Not to say that that's not a necessary and perfectly respectable place to be, it's certainly not for me. I'm an intellectual. Maybe not that great of one, but still. I need to be in a job where I will use my skills, not just exert force in some way or another. I'd like to look into being a sales person for a liquor company. I could really use some help figuring out how to get my life together. I need a mentor or something.
Ah well. Things are improving. At a glacial pace, but it's better than nothing. I'll get where I need to be someday.
frontline99:
Eh... Don't sweat it too much. Any women you would meet on this pub crawl would more than likely leave you in a similar situation. Don't stress too much just do what you do and youll run into some one (not literally)
oubliette:
Happy birthday, Belly Boy!