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You see, my problem is not with her not loving me, nor is it with the absolution of our relationship. My problem is that she would give me hope when there was no hope. The "I Love You's" when they weren't sincere is whats painful. The "we may have a future's" when it was already known not to be the case is what hurt. I just regret the feeling that I was making the greatest girl alive (in my eyes at the time) as happy as she could be and that she loved me when it was untrue. I was always open and honest... all I ever asked was the same.

And I never once have questioned if it would be the sex I would miss. What I miss is the kisses, the cuddling, the feeling that what we had was someting that could not be replicated with any other person. It would be hard for me to continue with her as a friend because we weren't friends before we started. It would be hard to see her and not think "Wow, this girl is still the most gorgeous alive" and not want to kiss her. I'm sure it may be possible over time, but not at this time.

But I do thank you for your consideration. It's much appreciated that a complete stranger could make an effort to help me out.

And might I say that you are actually quite striking. Not hitting on you... just making an opinion known.