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Oat i had to fill my car. I had such a headache that it was hard for mekay today is day that i would really want to forget. I had a really bad day today. First off i lost a part of my earing. I zpent almozt twenty minutes looking for it nd i did not find it . On top of to drive.it is amazing how stupid people can be on the road.the gas tation was ridiculously crowded. There were cars every where.

Gas prices have came down but not enough . I hate this time of year. Give me cold weather over hot and sunny weather any dY oc the year.i am so pissed off rivh now i just want to crawl into my bed sleep and neve sake up. I want to go away so bad i can just scream. I was told in a not such good way that i should get out of the house more great i will just hop on a fraight train and dissapear.there is a train yard near vernon street. Monday night i went exploring . I wan!ted to just hop on a fraight train and dissapear. I know that the sun will rise tomorrow. I know that tommorrow holds new oppourtunity.

Come tommorow i will see what happens .i might have to move out of cca. That is just fine with me because i am getting the feeling that it is time for me to go. I do hope i do not have to move to new jersey but i mght not have much of a choice. Maybe it is just time to leave roseville . Maybe it is time for me to go back to southern ca . I never really moved up from irvine by choice if it was up to me i would have never have left. A nightmar day iis ending.

Speaking of nightmares i had one last night i dreamt i was being beaten up i tried to run but i kept getting beatun up. All of the udden i ran for the door i was ike in a hotel. When i got out ithe beating stopped. And my alarm wwent off. Someone wake me up from this nightmare please.