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a city i can't remember being abandon at birth does that to you *sigh*

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Tuesday Apr 19, 2011

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http://www.conyaandscott.com i don't even know where to begin . My head is all crammed with different thoughts i have so many things on imy mind right now . I feel like i look around and i see 20 different path ways.
i feel like i am beyond lost ! like instead of choosing a pass i would just want to stay on the cross roads . I don't know how thing got so complicated all of the sudden ? i would want to close my eyes go to sleep and when i wake up everything will be simple again .

I take everything say by day , that is all i can afford to do . The women who shares my bed tells me she gets nervous when i am not around is a real worry wart . i mean a class five emotional wreck worry wart . i can understand where she is coming from . meeting her in the same foster home i was in , I had to go away for a while . I did not want to go but i had , "freemason business . " I told her i would be back as soon as possible.
she understands but was very worried about me .

I don't think she grew up emotionally , i grew up emotionally to a small extent but i don't show it . I had to go to Monteray . One of the last places i wanted to be . I went there so many times too many times i am fucking sick of it ! I don't recomand that any one go down there more than once . In fact i don't really recomend it at all ! it is boring ! people say " life is what you make of it . " Well you can do only so much to make a bad situation into a good situation . I was able to make it into a neutral situation . I was asked , " did you have a good time in
monteray ? " " No , i had a neutral time in monteray . it was neither good nor bad !

It is strange to say you had a neutral time any were . When i got back i felt like i dreamt the whole thing . Like Monteray was a dream i had and i just woke up . I dream often and almost all of my dreams feel like they really happened . I used to keep a dream diary but i lost interest . I have disgraphia and i had trouble writing after just waking up . I know i need to finish my third book by may . It was supposed to be done in december but i was no where near finished with it . I had a dentist appointment today at two thank god my teeth are healthy !

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