st_jimmy

WTF??? fuck not much else to say but FUCK

why do i let dumb stuff bug the hell out of me????? i cant stand the thought of somethings it turns my stomach upside down and in side out....is this the price of being a nice guy or am i just fucking crazy... its so hard to let somethings go....it really is ....even when you know its the thing to do ...

if only i could turn some emotions off that would be awsome ok maybe not but then maybe it wouldnt hurt so bad...you know... so tiered of this pain in my heart ...it hurts so fucking bad some times it feels like i cant take it anymore...

even now as i write this im fighting back the tears and the hurt and the pain and the lonelyness...

i hate that when i think im making head way i end up going backwards in a big way...

i so hate being alone i hate not having my friends near me i hate having that feeling that your all alone even if its not true..when you know there are people around you...

fuck ...i hate being so god dame depressed all the time ....
i hate that i make my self like this ....

i hate that i let my mind wonder off in to places it doesnt need to be ....

i wont to get over this shit so i can move on ....
i ach to be happy and to have some one ...

maybe thats my problem ....i should just be