squints

So yesterday I had orientation for school. I had to write an essay explaining why I want to be a nurses assistant. I bullshitted the whole thing, mostly cause I wasn't aware I was going to have to write an essay. But I'm currently wondering if maybe I'm just really not into it. I have enjoyed working in the medical field, but maybe only because i don't directly deal with patients. Being a cna is a lot of hard dirty work, I don't know if I have it in me to deal with sick people like that. I'm kinda bummed about it....I really don't want to waste my time and money if I'm not %100 about it, so I think I'm going to put it off