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Sorry, I can’t promise that I won’t post some of these at times. but yeah,

so lately I have been feeling like a failure, a nobody, and just existing. I don’t have many friends, or if any, anymore. I feel like I’m not as close to them as I used to be. Like idk, when we talk, it’s like it feels obligatory to me that they do talk to me. and then school didn’t work out. again. I feel I won’t go back. kinda upsetting. My boyfriend is back on a crazy schedule. and I’m just here alone. working as a waitress scraping by. This is not how I envisioned life for me.

Like in my previous post, I didn’t/ don’t have a plan, but this rut, or wave of uselessness is not what I had wanted.