-Monday-
- so being all depressed i'm sitting here thinking. thinking of being alone... forever
and i'm reminded of something two of my best friends said to me:" why aren't you out going out with hot single horny young chicks? i want to live vicariously through you." yeah, well guys, i want to live vicariously through me too. i just don't care enough to do it. i never learned to flirt, i don't freaking understand playing the dating game, nobody fucking like me, i'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough, and gosh darnit, people don't like me
yeah stuart, shut up.
- ok, now it's happy time. i'll think of fluffy little pups( don't think of blenders too), brown paper packages tied up with string (but without pipe bombs packed inside nails in them) and blood dripping from the ceiling as we dance around a big roaring fire (clothed of course, naked doing that would be just sick)
- so at work today, some lady was looking for something for her sons phone and wasn't sure what he wanted and was moaning about she can't get her son to come to the mall with her, he's always on the computer and she can't get him to get off it, and blah blah, so i say," well, just turn it off" and she says oh, i could do that but he'd throw a fit and be mad at me and oh i'm such a bad mother and he's spoiled and i could start being stricting and he'll have to get used to it, but i couldn't i'm so weak and he'd be mad at me, oh, oh, oh, and all the while she's saying this with her head bowed staring at the ground and i'm thinking her kid must be a rightous little sob that i'd probably want to smack if i met him and this lady is such a whiny pushover.
-tuesday-
- worked. then shopped. i'm in a better mood. for a while i wasn't, cause i was like,"what do you need 3 more pairs of pants (awesome corduroy pants!) and another belt buckle (with skulls all over it!) for?" and i told myself," SHUT UP! 'CAUSE I WANT TO ASSHOLE!!!"
so i bought some pants, a belt buckle, some towels (bright colors with embroidered flowers on them), some chrome hangers, some socks, a bigger over the door hook rack, more towels, a leather covered, velvet lined box, a black shirt, a small green nylon bag, a duffel strap, and... well that's it for now. i have a bit of cash sitting here and i want this stuff so i got it. i need to save now, and pay for school. tomorrow i'm gonna sit and figure out which classes for sure i want to take, then go register online.
- speaking of register online, since i can't get my comp to log on to secure sites i went to kinkos to place the order for work. so it took an hour and a half, and cost $16 and i get paid for the time it took, and i ordered a bunch of new stuff ($1000 worth of stuff, which i went through and lowered from $1600) and after that i went shopping.
- after shoppin i went to my moms and watched tv with my sisters: American idol, then 2 hours of miami ink. now i am home and relaxin a bit online before i go to bed.
- Amazing Grace
how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch
like meeeee
i once was lost
but now i'm found
was blind
but now i seeeee
- i need to do laundry still
- i've got so many songs on my computer that it's getting hard to pick which ones to sync onto my mp3 player. i need a bigger one.
-wednesday-
- work went well. s-l-o-w though. really slow. but that's the way, ah-huh ah-huh, i like it...
- after work i got some food at the polo train, then came home, ate, took a nap, and now i'm doing laundry.
- i love that i got a pair of house slippers to wear. they're comfy and warm.
late
♥
- so being all depressed i'm sitting here thinking. thinking of being alone... forever
and i'm reminded of something two of my best friends said to me:" why aren't you out going out with hot single horny young chicks? i want to live vicariously through you." yeah, well guys, i want to live vicariously through me too. i just don't care enough to do it. i never learned to flirt, i don't freaking understand playing the dating game, nobody fucking like me, i'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough, and gosh darnit, people don't like me
yeah stuart, shut up.
- ok, now it's happy time. i'll think of fluffy little pups( don't think of blenders too), brown paper packages tied up with string (but without pipe bombs packed inside nails in them) and blood dripping from the ceiling as we dance around a big roaring fire (clothed of course, naked doing that would be just sick)
- so at work today, some lady was looking for something for her sons phone and wasn't sure what he wanted and was moaning about she can't get her son to come to the mall with her, he's always on the computer and she can't get him to get off it, and blah blah, so i say," well, just turn it off" and she says oh, i could do that but he'd throw a fit and be mad at me and oh i'm such a bad mother and he's spoiled and i could start being stricting and he'll have to get used to it, but i couldn't i'm so weak and he'd be mad at me, oh, oh, oh, and all the while she's saying this with her head bowed staring at the ground and i'm thinking her kid must be a rightous little sob that i'd probably want to smack if i met him and this lady is such a whiny pushover.
-tuesday-
- worked. then shopped. i'm in a better mood. for a while i wasn't, cause i was like,"what do you need 3 more pairs of pants (awesome corduroy pants!) and another belt buckle (with skulls all over it!) for?" and i told myself," SHUT UP! 'CAUSE I WANT TO ASSHOLE!!!"
so i bought some pants, a belt buckle, some towels (bright colors with embroidered flowers on them), some chrome hangers, some socks, a bigger over the door hook rack, more towels, a leather covered, velvet lined box, a black shirt, a small green nylon bag, a duffel strap, and... well that's it for now. i have a bit of cash sitting here and i want this stuff so i got it. i need to save now, and pay for school. tomorrow i'm gonna sit and figure out which classes for sure i want to take, then go register online.
- speaking of register online, since i can't get my comp to log on to secure sites i went to kinkos to place the order for work. so it took an hour and a half, and cost $16 and i get paid for the time it took, and i ordered a bunch of new stuff ($1000 worth of stuff, which i went through and lowered from $1600) and after that i went shopping.
- after shoppin i went to my moms and watched tv with my sisters: American idol, then 2 hours of miami ink. now i am home and relaxin a bit online before i go to bed.
- Amazing Grace
how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch
like meeeee
i once was lost
but now i'm found
was blind
but now i seeeee
- i need to do laundry still
- i've got so many songs on my computer that it's getting hard to pick which ones to sync onto my mp3 player. i need a bigger one.
-wednesday-
- work went well. s-l-o-w though. really slow. but that's the way, ah-huh ah-huh, i like it...
- after work i got some food at the polo train, then came home, ate, took a nap, and now i'm doing laundry.
- i love that i got a pair of house slippers to wear. they're comfy and warm.
late
♥
- Lady @ the mall: Maybe there's some crazy circumstances that make her act the way she does when it comes to her son (only child, single parent, etc.). It may not necessarily be the fact that she's just too much of a wimp to stand up to her son because of the "need" factor (her needing him in her life, that is). There's always going to be something beneath the surface...
- Hey man, whatever course you decide to pursue in college is your choice. I'm sure you'll find a path that'll lead you to having that feeling of "worth" towards a particullar career goal. Hell, it doesn't hurt that the path includes a good-paying job in the end...
- Acquiring material items: Hell yeah! You earned it, right? I believe that if you worked for that currency in your wallet, you have every right to use it as you wish. You want an extra piece of clothing: It's yours if you can dish it out! We all do shit like that @ times. You should see one of my closets: It's full of bowling balls and I know I don't need that many (I'm sure there's close to 30 of them in there). All I'm saying is that I agree w/ you on that point...big time!
- I woke up to get something to drink...now I'm here reading and commenting. That just goes to show: I love logging on here 'cause it owns!...have a good one man!
you made we want to shop