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I had my first mammogram today, at the age of 31. Three hours I was there. First a mammogram, then a second shot of an area, and then I was told I needed an ultra sound, then the doctor came in and did the ultra sound, after she said she needed to have a consultation with me. She explained to me that they found two spots in my right breast. One they are concerned about, and one they believe may just be a small cyst. The one they are worried about, to her looks like cancer. I found out later that they don't normally tell you that. Long story short, I am going in for surgery to have it removed and biopsied (I can't spell it and I don't give a crap). We will go from there.

I wonder sometimes, will this shit ever stop? I just had back surgery a couple months ago! I have to go back to see the surgeon now because I am having problems again. I think this file project I did at work did me in. What the??? I am only 31. If I was 80, okay sure, but give me a break. Ever since I had my thyroid problems back in 2004 it is one thing after another, and breast cancer is scary. I am so tired and so drained. It has been a long day. After my 3 hour appointment I ended up going back to the office and bursting into tears and then leaving for the day. Jme picked me up and brought me to work with him because he didn't want me home all day alone thinking. It was good idea. After I leave here I am going to read my book and try to forget everything. I have to call tomorrow for my surgery appointment. Please think good thoughts for me. I know I am a sucky sg friend these days but I need all the positive energy and good thoughts I can get. I am not sure how much more crap I can take.

Okay, on to the good stuff.

Over the weekend Jme and I went to Shimmer's wedding. It was beautiful!! She looked amazing and it was one of the sweetest ceremonies I have ever seen. The day was perfect and so was everything else!! The reception was really nice. They had it at this farm and the building was really interesting. It was so nice. I will post pics on my next blog. I don't have it in me to do it tonight.

I have an interview for a full time permanent job this Wed at an OBGYN office. I would really like to work there. It is across from where I am now but it would be a steady job, no end date. The same money, same hours, paid holidays, paid vacation, all that jazz. I am really excited about it.

So, how are all of you? What's new??? Hopefully good things!!!

Have a great week my friends.