I played chess this weekend. I don't play chess often and I haven't played chess in several years.
We were fairly evenly matched. In fact, she may have been just a touch better than I was. Take a Piece, Lose a piece ... point for point we were never far off. The game seemed very back and forth without a clear winner. It got to...
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We were fairly evenly matched. In fact, she may have been just a touch better than I was. Take a Piece, Lose a piece ... point for point we were never far off. The game seemed very back and forth without a clear winner. It got to...
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redfirefaery:
perhaps the king saw the pawn as, rather than a threat, a savior...
redfirefaery:
i am fairly certain you know exactly where my thoughts have been. i am also fairly certain you know that what is holding me up moving along in life is the idea of whether i want a family badly enough to be dissatisfied/unsatisfied for the rest of my life. or do i give up the dream i have had my whole life of having kids and a husband to follow what i know my mind and body are looking for? life changing stuff to decide on the stomach empty because i forget to eat, can't eat, and anything i eat tastes like ash...
~ October 27th. 10:35am. 1996.
Noel skips out of her lunch period. She goes to the girl's bathroom and looks down at her open hand. She thinks of the notes she wrote last night sitting on her desk: One to her parents and sister, one to her cheerleading team, and one to Jim and Jimmy. She sighed the longest sigh of her life - then...
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Noel skips out of her lunch period. She goes to the girl's bathroom and looks down at her open hand. She thinks of the notes she wrote last night sitting on her desk: One to her parents and sister, one to her cheerleading team, and one to Jim and Jimmy. She sighed the longest sigh of her life - then...
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redfirefaery:
darlin you are never alone. you may not have your noel, but you have your pixie and your faery. remember what we both believe about worrying... which i am sure you are doing anyway... and turn that energy into a prayer. my usual mantra during the hard days, the indecisive days, the days where you wish whatever situation you were in would just CHANGE, is something like this:
i don't know how this needs to end for me to leave knowing what i need to know. only the universe decides that, only the mother knows. may the outcome come quickly, so all involved may learn their lessons and move on. so i will and so mote it be. blessed be.
and i always stop to think about what i should be learning, what one part of my life may be letting me learn about another. like my SAD allowing me to find my blessings...
i don't know how this needs to end for me to leave knowing what i need to know. only the universe decides that, only the mother knows. may the outcome come quickly, so all involved may learn their lessons and move on. so i will and so mote it be. blessed be.
and i always stop to think about what i should be learning, what one part of my life may be letting me learn about another. like my SAD allowing me to find my blessings...
First ~ a backstory about me:
I work hard 40 hours a week and I KNOW I am good at what I do. I'm grossly underpaid - and thats life. My biggest strength, at work, is how effeciently I use our computers. I'm conceeded enough to say that I am probably the best in the company with that damn computer. (I don't usually give myself...
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I work hard 40 hours a week and I KNOW I am good at what I do. I'm grossly underpaid - and thats life. My biggest strength, at work, is how effeciently I use our computers. I'm conceeded enough to say that I am probably the best in the company with that damn computer. (I don't usually give myself...
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redfirefaery:
click on "insert image" put this address (look down) in the box, and VOILA!
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spott:
Thanks. !!
Slept until 2pm - LONG overdue sleep!
So today I had made plans to go with my best friend, the Gothic Elf, and her friend (Doombird) to walk thru 2.5 miles of trail over 5 acres of corn. Sounds like fun! Actually - its an Amazing Maise Maze ... and it really is a lot of fun. The plan was to go at 9pm and...
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So today I had made plans to go with my best friend, the Gothic Elf, and her friend (Doombird) to walk thru 2.5 miles of trail over 5 acres of corn. Sounds like fun! Actually - its an Amazing Maise Maze ... and it really is a lot of fun. The plan was to go at 9pm and...
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redfirefaery:
but your past has been clouded.
spott:
That doesn't mean I have no past - it just means I cannot see it ~ so it has no bearing on where I am right now.
Yeah - so I created an SG profile. We'll see how much I'm actually willing to type later.
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redfirefaery:
i think it is just an addiction to the beverage 
by the way, "cavedragon", i will read daily as well as comment... whether or not i actually post in my journal! ♥
by the way, "cavedragon", i will read daily as well as comment... whether or not i actually post in my journal! ♥
redfirefaery:
<drools> i just read Charlize Theron is doing Aeon Flux <drools>