spooky520

Well back to the hospital again tomorrow. Get to spend all day with them running tests on me again.....mylograhm and something else I cant begain to spell let alone type, about 8 hours worth. "Cant eat or drink anything after midnight, no medications but authorized by the doctor...ect, ect, ect". Its really hard because i dont sleep much so not drinking anythng after midnight is...
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Ok now im am over my ranty self and are more into the retrospective mode. Been thinking about my life and the things that have happened to me......hell its thanksgiving time right.

First off i want to say a few things about myself. I am a single child whos father was in the military for all my young life. Some people have called me a...
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I am so tired of being in pain and not being able to sleep....just so fucking tired.

ex is driving me crazy....i have to wait till may to go back to court to get custody of my daughter....she gets to tell them who she wants to live with. the ex if she isnt an alcoholic is so damn close that there is no difference. social...
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i have decided that people need to kiss or just make out more. I really miss that feeling i had as a teenager when you make out on the couch or in the car....the excitement of it...the anticipation of maybe getting lucky.

seems like people just dont make out like they used to. start kissing and straight to bed. love the make out part which...
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well here i am again.....sitting here in my bedroom staring at the walls, the tv and the laptop. the laptop wins and i have decided to check my normal spots on the web.

one more week till i see the doctor and find out whats going on, when i can get the next surgery, if i can drive again (that way life wont be so...
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well im still here, still in pain but was expecting it.

nothing new happening in my life, just hanging out in bed watching tv and playing on the laptop.

for the people that responded to my last post, i love you all. for my "friends" that didnt........well......we will just let it go for now.

so tired of being in the house, want to get out,...
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well im finally out of the hospital and home.....seemed like forever. i went in on the 14th to have spinal fusion on two areas of my spine but only had the one done due to being on the table for 6 hours under sadation. the doctors didnt want to keep me under another 4 more hours.

the surgery went fine acording to the doctors, as...
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well surgery is set for friday....as much as im scared some, i am looking forward to it also......maybe i will not be in as much pain when things are done healing.

i just wanted to say that i will not be on here for awhile after this week cuz of this so wanted to tell my friends that i will miss them and hopefully be...
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hi everyone, sorry i dont post anything anymore. i guess depressed would be my appropriate state of mind right now. i am in pain and just plain tired. i am tired of being in pain, tired of the talk of death and what im supposed to do after, just plain fuckin tired of being tired.

im sorry im not posting much on peoples blogs or...
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just wanted to say hi to everyone and post something that i found on utube


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddn4MGaS3N4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cvar4ZsqsEo