spooky520

i wanted to thank everyone for sending me messages telling me that they were thinking of me. it has been a rough couple weeks for me. i really dont know what is the matter. i physically am so tired and in alot of pain. mentally i am confused about whats going on and again tired and wore out. i think with me just not being able to do the things that i am used to and what to is just finally catching up to me. i have not been able to work since january and so its almost been a year. taking care of my parents on top of every thing else is wearing me out. what people dont realize is that i also have to try to take care of my kids...they are 17 and 15 so dont need alot of stuff done for them but they are still kids and are having a hard time with the dying thing so the menal thing is hard for them. i guess just everything is catching up to me. hell its been so bad i havnt even enjoyed looking at all the beautiful naked women on the site.

i cant wait till christmas is over....have two presents to buy which i am going to have to go get sometime today. maybe the new year will be better.......its like i am waiting for something to happen but dont know what it is. i feel so much on edge about it,...i just wish i knew what it was i was waiting for.

so i hope everyones holidays are full of happiness and that eveyone has a great day tomorrow.

love to you all