Oh well wasted again....really starting to be an everyday thing.
I guess this is going to be a bitch type session, one way of getting out the anger and frustration is to put it into words so i guess i will put it here so i will say im sorry to people first for ranting and carriying on.
Some of you have seen my earlier threads/blogs (whatever you want to call them) about my mom having cancer. We thought see was doing better but it turns out it is getting worse and spreading to more areas throughout her body. I guess it is a matter of time now...who knows with that shit. You figure that since it has been about a year since we found out that you would get used to the idea but you don't. It really sucks.........
I went to one of my best friends wedding recieptions the other day which was alot of fun....lots to drink and even though i didnt know everyone i still had a good time up to a point. She has a 19 year old daughter who is like my little sister and i love her to death. I am the big brother she never had. She will call me up about boys and her mom ect....it is really alot of fun since i am an only child and never had the chance to be a brother ot anyone. Here is where the problems start...i have gray in my facial hair so it does make me look my age or older sometimes. This was a blessing when i was younger since it alowed me to get into bars and clubs before i was legal to do so. I have had the gray since i was is 17 years old....genetic i guess. One of my sisters (i will call her that since she is as far as we are concerned), saw us talking for awhile and made the comment about talking to the old guy for so long and ignoring her friends. Well she left shortly after that due to the tongue lashing and cussing she recieved afte the comment. But it does bring up a point for me....i am older on the outside but still young inside. I know it shouldn't bother me but sometimes it does. People who are younger look at me and say things like that all the time. People should judge me on whats inside, not what i look like. I have tattoos and some of the looks i get from them are funny but annoying at the same time. Again people should judge people on whats inside, not whats out. That is one of the reasons i joined this site was figuring that i would fit in because people would judge me on whats inside, unfortunatly that is not really the case here most of the time either. I have requested friendships and several times and sent a message like i normally do along with it and have been turned down because i look to old and would have nothing in common with that person even though we have alot of the same interests and belong to some of the same groups. Its like my sister said, he is older yes but he has lots of experiences and has seen alot of things. He tells the funniest stories and is alot of fun. How can that be bad? If people cant deal with that then FUCK YOU.
There, I have ranted, raved and cussed people out i guess. Time to get another happy pill and a glass of wine....yes fuckers i drink wine over beer, hey im Italian what do you expect.
I guess this is going to be a bitch type session, one way of getting out the anger and frustration is to put it into words so i guess i will put it here so i will say im sorry to people first for ranting and carriying on.
Some of you have seen my earlier threads/blogs (whatever you want to call them) about my mom having cancer. We thought see was doing better but it turns out it is getting worse and spreading to more areas throughout her body. I guess it is a matter of time now...who knows with that shit. You figure that since it has been about a year since we found out that you would get used to the idea but you don't. It really sucks.........
I went to one of my best friends wedding recieptions the other day which was alot of fun....lots to drink and even though i didnt know everyone i still had a good time up to a point. She has a 19 year old daughter who is like my little sister and i love her to death. I am the big brother she never had. She will call me up about boys and her mom ect....it is really alot of fun since i am an only child and never had the chance to be a brother ot anyone. Here is where the problems start...i have gray in my facial hair so it does make me look my age or older sometimes. This was a blessing when i was younger since it alowed me to get into bars and clubs before i was legal to do so. I have had the gray since i was is 17 years old....genetic i guess. One of my sisters (i will call her that since she is as far as we are concerned), saw us talking for awhile and made the comment about talking to the old guy for so long and ignoring her friends. Well she left shortly after that due to the tongue lashing and cussing she recieved afte the comment. But it does bring up a point for me....i am older on the outside but still young inside. I know it shouldn't bother me but sometimes it does. People who are younger look at me and say things like that all the time. People should judge me on whats inside, not what i look like. I have tattoos and some of the looks i get from them are funny but annoying at the same time. Again people should judge people on whats inside, not whats out. That is one of the reasons i joined this site was figuring that i would fit in because people would judge me on whats inside, unfortunatly that is not really the case here most of the time either. I have requested friendships and several times and sent a message like i normally do along with it and have been turned down because i look to old and would have nothing in common with that person even though we have alot of the same interests and belong to some of the same groups. Its like my sister said, he is older yes but he has lots of experiences and has seen alot of things. He tells the funniest stories and is alot of fun. How can that be bad? If people cant deal with that then FUCK YOU.
There, I have ranted, raved and cussed people out i guess. Time to get another happy pill and a glass of wine....yes fuckers i drink wine over beer, hey im Italian what do you expect.
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Hope this dose of radioactive fairydust from the toxic land of the undead was enough to keep you satisfied until the next mutation.
...and sweetie, I have never thought of you a "older" people who do suck and don't matter anyway!
...I plan on spending the majority of my time at home this next couple of weeks naked!!