spooky520

well im finally out of the hospital and home.....seemed like forever. i went in on the 14th to have spinal fusion on two areas of my spine but only had the one done due to being on the table for 6 hours under sadation. the doctors didnt want to keep me under another 4 more hours.

the surgery went fine acording to the doctors, as...
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well surgery is set for friday....as much as im scared some, i am looking forward to it also......maybe i will not be in as much pain when things are done healing.

i just wanted to say that i will not be on here for awhile after this week cuz of this so wanted to tell my friends that i will miss them and hopefully be...
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hi everyone, sorry i dont post anything anymore. i guess depressed would be my appropriate state of mind right now. i am in pain and just plain tired. i am tired of being in pain, tired of the talk of death and what im supposed to do after, just plain fuckin tired of being tired.

im sorry im not posting much on peoples blogs or...
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just wanted to say hi to everyone and post something that i found on utube


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddn4MGaS3N4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cvar4ZsqsEo

hello everyone, just figured that i would write something about whats going on since alot of people are asking.

i finally found out what all the tests on my back mean, surgery

i am going to have to go in for some more tests this week, then surgery in september. from what i understand, they are going to fuse two different disks in my back,...
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well i had my test done on friday and the doctor was right.......extream pain and no medication till the tests were over. they call it a discogram, its where they insert needles into your spine (spaces between the discs) and inject fluid into the space to cause pain. this is to try to isolate where the pain is comming from (which disc) so they can...
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here is one of my favorite passages from a book, some of you may reconize it. i do actually think about this when times are tough......

i shall not fear
fear is the mind-killer
fear is the little death that brings total obliteration
i shall face my fear
i will permit it to pass over me and through me
and when it has gone past...
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had a good week.

had good news about my dad....the cancer in his liver is gone, just have to get the cnacer in his pancreas under control.

had the tattoo on my leg finished today. just have to get to florida to get the sleeve finished.

glad the nice weather is here, cant stand the winter.

hope everone is doing ok.

hello everyone.

just figured i would say something, its been awhile. I have been lurking in the background of things, making a comment here and there. Things have been really hectic around here, having to run mom and dad to chemo twice a week and any other doctors appointment when needed. I am also having to deal with my own medical problems. Found out i...
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hello everyone....

its been awhile since i did any type of blog on here. as anyone who has read the last blog is my dad was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, my mom has also been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer about 1 1/2 years ago. i am going to start on a little rant here, my mom has breast cancer which has spread...
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i will not be around for awhile so will not be commenting on friends journals......i now have two terminally ill parents to take care of.......dad's results came back positive for cancer and he cant drive right now.