had to go see my therapist today...bleh. i have an old lady and i feel weird talking to her about the things i have done. i could just see her jaw drop and start stuttering. well she got to listen to me ramble for an hour. i think i just keep hopein that they will give me zanax. i don't think they will =( she just kept saying you need to learn some breathing exercises and i'm thinking zanzax and shes like breath in *zanax* breath out *zanax* lol. i guess the zoloft is helping...tho i'm not sure cause i don't remember what its like to 'feel happy'. so anyways i'm gonna get my haircut tonight...maybie a new color not sure yet. time to eat 
later taters
later taters