spookie

it fucking sucks not to be loved or wanted...
it fucking sucks to love someone who doesn't love you back...
all of it lies and pretending...
all the smiles and laughs...the 'i love yous' and 'nothing is worth losing you overs'-
ALL BULLSHIT!!!!
how could i have not seen it coming...
how could i have let you hurt me so bad and make me feel like you did love me...
like everything was ok...all the plans all the ideas...
maybie i was the one pretending.