Tonight has sucked. I can't fucking sleep. If there was 10 million dollars waiting for me in the morning I wouldn't get it. I haven't cried this much since I was a fucking child. I wake up and expect Jacki to be next to me. I constantly think about how many times I fucked up and it kills me. All this pain welling up inside me is like a stomach full of knifes. What the FUCK am I? I love her and yet I have done so many destructive things to her. If there was a fucking god, people wouldn't be permitted to fuck up royally like me.
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welntaod:
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morbidkitten:
im not sure of your situation but sometimes you just gotta give it time. if you lost her trust in some way it takes a while to get it back but if you love her its worth the wait. your still really young you have the time sometimes pushing to hard makes things worse. like the first girl said right person wrong time. doesnt mean that cant change in the future 