blah. writing here since its relatively safe from the view of people who mean the world to me, yet cause me such angst and turmoil that i have a breakdown in front of hundreds.
yeah lessee... i htink iits partially due to an super tiredness. i had both a great and horrible time at Goth Prom last night.
on the plus side
i got to meet blasfemme
darkjuan, neodrunk and judas all came out and looked like they and their significant others were having fun times
we had a great turnout and things went totally smoove.
on the minus side
i felt like i was being totally neglected by my date. who didnt even tell me she was goin to be my date until 15 mins before the event started, which coincidentatlly was 15 mins later than i was supposed to be there. blah.
the above seemed symptomatic of other issues that i think need to be addressed between myself and my 'date' who is really just my best friend.
a lot of my turmoil can probably be put down to being over tired. and even now. i'm still tired. i only got 3 hours of sleep and i'm awake - accidentally set the space heater's thremostat to the wrong thing. and consequently i also have a huge sore throat.
plus i have been fighting a cold. blah.
oh fuck this negativity. on the other plus sides i got to talk to 2 girls that i'm attracted to, but too fucking gutless to ask out. one of whom i just met last week and wasnt sure what her dating status was til after the event was over. now i know and i think i want to pursue.
finally got to meet Mistress Jean aka Rubberella last night. whee! shes so hot.
oh i guess i didnt talk to this other girl i am attracted to. oh well. i had enough on my plate.
ok. i guess i feel better now that i've vented. the question is how do i broach the topic i need to talk about with my best friend?
yeah lessee... i htink iits partially due to an super tiredness. i had both a great and horrible time at Goth Prom last night.
on the plus side
i got to meet blasfemme
darkjuan, neodrunk and judas all came out and looked like they and their significant others were having fun times
we had a great turnout and things went totally smoove.
on the minus side
i felt like i was being totally neglected by my date. who didnt even tell me she was goin to be my date until 15 mins before the event started, which coincidentatlly was 15 mins later than i was supposed to be there. blah.
the above seemed symptomatic of other issues that i think need to be addressed between myself and my 'date' who is really just my best friend.
a lot of my turmoil can probably be put down to being over tired. and even now. i'm still tired. i only got 3 hours of sleep and i'm awake - accidentally set the space heater's thremostat to the wrong thing. and consequently i also have a huge sore throat.
plus i have been fighting a cold. blah.
oh fuck this negativity. on the other plus sides i got to talk to 2 girls that i'm attracted to, but too fucking gutless to ask out. one of whom i just met last week and wasnt sure what her dating status was til after the event was over. now i know and i think i want to pursue.
finally got to meet Mistress Jean aka Rubberella last night. whee! shes so hot.
oh i guess i didnt talk to this other girl i am attracted to. oh well. i had enough on my plate.
ok. i guess i feel better now that i've vented. the question is how do i broach the topic i need to talk about with my best friend?
my method is pretty much to vomit information at people and let them deal with it---if you need to talk to her, just do it. you don't need a plan, just the reality of what you have to say.
had a great time man... thanks!!